Taipei Day 2..Maybe not

Was supposed to wait for pictures from my camera,
which is regrettably, still with Wen,
(but that's another story)
before I update on Day 2 in Taipei.

Then I was too impatient I thought,
Why not just update only lar?

But,
its NO fun seeing a long-ass blog post with no pictures.
Right?
Right.

But,
on the other hand,
work is killing me.

Compiling a S.O.P can be equated to working with 10 useless group members,
not that my colleagues are incompetent,
its just that this project is not their responsibility so they don't really care.
and if you read it backwards it actually stands for..
Pile of Shit. 
Which is exactly what I think I'm doing now.
=.=

SO!

I decided to do this:

I warned you!
Ok.
I really need to get back to work.
NOW.

Taipei 2012

Four days, well spent.
With the two that got me a little apprehensive at first..
One was just emotion-less (or slow I dunno, referring to the Rafi event lolol),
and the other one was just.. not really a fully-grown adult yet.
Haha!

Waiting for our KUL-TPE flight.
Bi was asking Wen about the most romantic experience she has encountered,
and without waiting for Wen to answer,
she proceeded to tell us her own experience.
=__________=

I know right?
Banyak sai meng one.. Lolol!

#1 - Wen and the bread her mummy packed for her. Lol

#2 - Me and the hyper one.

#3 - And if you stalk me this photo I posted before dy. Taken on board upon arrival. No make!

After searching high and low for our hotel, we finally settled down.
The person in charge was quite good looking (damn all these Taiwanese guys..)
and actually that was the only thing I remember about our hotel..
Nah, joking la!

Our hotel room, or more like backpackers / hostel I'm not sure was actually quite nice.
Its situated in a residential building,
so the exterior was a bit..
ermmm..
Like tat la, but the rooms were ok!
Clean (both physically and spiritually haha) and everything was quite new..
Was comfy but the only downside its the slight distance from the center of Xi Men Ding..

#4 - The exterior

#5 - Some snapshots of the room..

#6 - Me and Wen waiting for Bi who dunno was busy with wat..

Went for Ah Zong mian xian. They loved it as much as I do!
This one no pictures cos all pictures are still in the camera,
which is still with Wen =(

And after that we headed to Shihlin Night Market.
Shopping craze started right there and then.

#7 - Part of it.

First night we all had some difficulty sleeping.
Mine was due to the strange environment,
Wen's was due to MY insomnia. LOL.
Then Bi, also woke up around 4am and we chatted a little..
Oh wells.
We definitely are YOUNG cos we slept less than 3 hours but yet managed to wake up at 7.30 the next day..
0.o

Sneak peek of Day 2 (hopefully I still have my blogging mojo then.. Haha)

Stay tuned!

xoxo

Turn a deaf ear

Her sorrows came as a surprise, yet all too familiar.
The same helplessness, anxiety, confusion.
The same annoyance, and most importantly,
the same fear.

We fear what we cannot control.
We fear the uncertainty.
We fear novelty.

I grew up caring too much what others would think about me,
then again, how can I not?
Try as I might,
I cannot say this is a thing of the past,
for I still put too much weight on what other's think of me.
I'm guilty, and so very stuck.

And thus the quest to perfect one's own self.
To fine tune all the little things,
to make sure there is nothing left to be talked about.
We naively think perfection forms the perfect shield.

But alas,
the tongues do not cease.
And that was my turning point,
I realized I could never NEVER ever please everyone.
However hard I might try to work towards perfection,
people talk.
Like it or not.

It's a process, really.
A growing process. 
One without an end.
The thing is,
not everything everyone says are meant to condemn.
Sometimes,
people say things they do not mean.
Sometimes,
people do things out of good intentions,
but end up with negative consequences.

There are too many variables in this equation.
And there is only so much one can do.

Stand strong.
Stay firm.
Know what you want.
Stay true to yourself.
At least, these were the things that led me through.

When faced with problems, fight the urge to give in.
Think thoroughly, and decide for yourself.

If you think the pressure's too much, you can always give in,
if that is what you want.
If conforming to the norm is your cup of tea,
by all means,
do it if it makes you happy!

But is this what you really want?


Darlings, we live for ourselves and no one else.


What did you just say again?

Been there done that... but with who?

Been there, done that.
These four words can accurately depict my relationship with Taipei.
The thing is,
I am a huge fan of familiarity.
(Ok fine, I'm scared of novelty)

And the second thing is,
I love Taipei.
I love the culture, the food, the people.

My comfort zone would be Xi Men Ding.
It's this two big squares that house most of my wonderful memories.
Painful, some. (Worth remembering nevertheless)
But beautiful, most of it.

My first trip to Taipei, in 2009.
This was taken in Wu Fen Pu.
One of the most eventful, yet heartbreaking trips I ever had.
Emotionally torturing, a huge roller coaster ride really.
But I'm glad that happened..
ALL of it :)

Second time in Taipei, November 2010.
Was quite apprehensive considering the not-so-good memories from 2009.
It was quite an open wound still.. And I was worried.
This was the first time traveling in four with the loves.
And boy, it was more than just fun <3
Negative memories be damned! This trip rewrote everything I knew and felt and remembered about Taipei.
Taken in Xi Men Ding.
(p/s: We changed alot since then haven't we? LOL)

And then the never-ever-thought-it-would-really-happen trip, in 2011.
This should go down in history, really it should!
Taken in the hotel room. One of the rare group pics that has ALL of us in it.
I love you all so much, need I say more?
<3 <3 <3

You see, the thing with Taipei is that each and every trip,
without fail,
folds itself into this tiny pocket bursting with emotions,
and nestles itself comfortably in my bag of memories.
And one might say that I have since visited this place so many times,
but yet each time it brings with it a meaningful surprise.

It's more than just the food, the people or the culture.
Its the company that matters.

Leaving for Taipei again this Thursday.
What will it bring this time?

Wait for it!

Cos' I am too..

计划.变化

朋友说，
我成熟了许多。
我笑说，
你懂我太少。

计划永远赶不上变化，
再无奈，
也得从容接受。
要记得，
没有巧合，
每一件发生的事情都有它的原因。

今天的这一步，
是你的选择。
若再次遇到铺满荆棘的路，
记得要为自己负责。

送上衷心的祝福 :)

There are no such thing as wrong choices;
Its YOUR choice to make every choice a right one.

here there everywhere

There are a gazillion thoughts running through my mind!
*Deep breaths*
Work is freaking me out, to say the least.
Coming out with a SOP is pure labor.
Psychologically, not physically..

Its not too early to pack I guess?
Trying to sort out my financial statements, admission procedures and all the itsy-bitsy (but super troublesome) stuff.
And then I can't help but think about all the things I should bring or should NOT bring

I mean
I'm really efficient in packing for a trip / vacation
But to pack for a "life" abroad
Now, that's a challenge, at least to me.

There are so many of my friends overseas.
Australia, German, UK, US, Taiwan, New Zealand.
You name it, we have it.
Do they all go through the same thing?
Or is it just me being a spoiled princess?

Mum says to bring bowls, cup, tupperware, chili and some other foodstuff.
Sis says to bring ALL my makeup, heels and bags (ok la, not really ALL but she meant it anyway cos she wanna use my space haha)
Then yesterday I randomly reminded them: "You guys must have dinner together everyday har"
Then they look at me with squinted eyes and shook their heads. LOL
Haha. Traditional Chinese la. =.=

Actually other than the certain ones (clothes, necessities),
I'm not sure whether I shud bring things like pillow / blanket as well?
And on-campus housing seems to be more suited for undergrads..   =X
So confusing right......

Anyway,
I've started making a list and writing down random stuff.
Like yesterday I thought about nail clippers and hangers! Haha.
*proud of myself*
And no, I dun think its too early at all.
So,
if anyone of you reading this think about any random things,
or any word of advice for that matter,
do let me know ok?

Loves for the good-hearted souls. LOL


p/s: dilemma-ing to choose between CURLY or STRAIGHT hair..

So many things, so little time

I will be leaving in August, I think. 

With eight percent of the procedures completed, 

I think it is fairly safe to say that yes, I will be furthering my studies in California. 

Of course, how can I not be ecstatic?

Enduring the tedious procedures, preparations, exams and whatnots,

I can only be thankful and grateful that I have finally secured a place in the Masters in Psychology program. 

The acceptance was definitely delighting,

but the emotions that follow were more than just complicated.

Looking at the classes schedule,

it suddenly hit me that I have less than 3 months left in Malaysia.

Like, dafuq?

I've got tons of things to cross off my to-do-list and I only have two plus plus months? 

And trust me,

humans will be humans.

Put a deadline, timeframe on, and the world seems like a different place.

Every chore seems like a sweet experience,

and every happy moment instils a dull ache.

What will change?

What will remain? 

And yes, I'll most probably be back next summer for a holiday,

but then, a LOT of changes can take place in those 12 months, no? 

My brother's studies, my sister's life without me (and mine without hers!), my mum and dad, my cousins, my aunts, my room..

My friends, the outings, the bond we share, the times we spent together.. 

That's just like, a tiny fraction of things that are going through my mind right now. 

I can feel tears welling up by just typing this wtf.

I'm such a sentimental (disgusting) person. Haha 

And most importantly,

what will the future behold?

Excitement and uncertainties entwined ever so tightly. 

Last but not least,

HOW WILL I EVER BE ABLE TO BRING MY WARDROBE OVER?

Sigh.

Girls will always be girls. LOL

Trying to end this with a humorous note la.

If not I will feel like crying again.

To a brighter future!

*cheers to ownself*