Random Halloween Ideas #1

Since I had no plans for halloween,
I made plans preparing for halloween.

Haha.
How do you like my "Manly Sexiness" look?

Finally going out this weekend.
Where to?

You'll find out soon enough!
(Cos like duh I no idea pun.. LOL)

Of midterms, celeries and sunsets

Done with midterm!
Say yay say yay!
*turns head and looks at to-do-list*
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Oh wells, maybe it's a bit too early for celebrations yet.

But things have slowly gotten into routine, damn well they should.
Life here is.. simple.
Eat, sleep, study, study more, skype, occasional swim, study some more.
They say I should go out more, but where?
Yet to be familiarized with the bus system here (which is super complicated and inconvenient btw so its not really my fault..)

Still, despite the mundane simple life so far, I'm surprised how I'm still discovering new things everyday.
Small little things.
Trivial stuff.

Like today we used "scantron", the answer sheet for multiple-choice questions.
It's exactly like the one we used in PMR/SPM, except that here,
we're supposed to buy it on our own. Like a note pad or something.

And like how yesterday I realized I actually like celery!
I hated it previously, just so you know.

We have winter break coming up, holiday for more than a month.
Dad was asking me whether I wanted to go home..
The simple, impulsive answer was Yes! Like duh..
But then,
I firmly said no.

First, because it's super expensive!
Holiday season lehh!
But most importantly, because I'm scared.
To go home and go through the "I'm leaving" process again.
Honestly, I know I'm not emotionally prepared to go through the whole turmoil and crying fits again.
>.<

So yea,
California you be good to me okay?
Make me love you more la,
so I can confidently go home one day knowing that I will want to come back here!

If California had a voice she would be saying:
"I'm so loveable ok? You just need to drag your lazy ass out of your room!"

...I think I better stop here.
Or I'll start a full-fledged monologue with myself.

Ending with a beautiful sunset shot, at campus today.

It's Finally Here

They say its the simplest things in life that make us happy.
Perhaps they're right, whoever they may be.

Received a parcel from home a few days back.

And boy, did it make me jump of joy.
Partly because of the small incident preceding it as well.
You can read about it in the previous post.
Trust me, there's nothing worth being so excited about in regards to the content of the parcel,
but merely its the thought that well,
its from home!

Recognizing Mumsie's handwriting! :')

Intently rummaging through the "treasure chest". Nah, you do not wanna know what's in there. LOL

Sigh.
I'm feeling pretty wistful lately.
If you know me,
you'll know I'm not that sort to be able to stay home for a long period of time.
And when I came here, I thought things changed,
I'm somehow comfortable confining myself to my own room.

But hey, guess what?
Turns out I'm still very "out-going", haha literally.
And the lack of "social life" here is slowly getting to me.
And so I've decided to get my drivers license by this year,
that is if I stop procrastinating.
And if I get a job on-campus asap! *praying hard*
Pray for me too ok?

So yea, for now,
you guys will not be seeing much of California,
unfortunately.

On a side note, I really do wanna go out for Halloween!
But they say trick-or-treating is for kids only :(

Oh wells.

Ending with a random pic of our first visit to McDonalds! 

Thinking emotionally. Emotionally thinking

Our physical brain evolves from the formation of the brain stem.

In case you've returned all knowledge of biology to your respective teachers,

let me just recap quickly on what the brain stem does. 

The brain stem is responsible for regulating bodily functions vital for survival.

These processes are usually something we're unaware of,

such as the pumping of the heart.

Now that we've established the foundation of our brain, what comes next?

The limbic system!

The limbic system is said to be largely responsible for our emotions, feelings, moods and temperaments.

And then we have the neo-cortex, where all our higher functions come into place.

Did you know that the term homosapiens literally translates to thinking individuals?

So anyway, what's my main point?

I know I know I'm getting there.

Patience!!

Today I read an article that says we evolved from having the brain stem, then the limbic system, and then the cortex.

In other words, our emotions come before thoughts. 

As humans,

we like to be rational.

We like to think we know what we're doing,

but yet most of the time,

mama got it right all along:

Listen to your heart baby, listen to what your heart tells you!

Errrr..

Of cos, by heart I don't mean the physical pumping heart,

more like the metaphor of it: your feelings!

I'm somewhat perplexed.

Like, from young we were taught to analyze and think rationally and logically.

Never were we educated on the importance of emotions!

I felt like I was cheated. Haha. 

So anyway,

I am here to remind you to listen to your heart people!

The term homosapien does not even come close to describing who we really are,

and what we can potentially be.

Acknowledge your emotions as they are,

if you're happy, let the joyous moment roll,

and if you're sad, let the tears flow!

Denying their existence only leads to negative consequences.

So...

If love is what you're feeling right now, go for it babe!

And if confusion is taking place, take a step back and assess how you really feel about it!

This post is inspired in part by my interesting reading,

and a little situation that came up unexpectedly last Friday night. 

*It's not what you think it is*

Anyway, keep your emotions in check and have a happy week ahead! 

My pretty smile just in case you need something to arouse your happy emotions! LOLOL

And also my "act-surprised/distressed/shocked" face just in case you find this slightly more amusing.

Oh my, I'm so vain.

Lalalala~

Back to work! 

xoxo

Up Down Up Down Humblebrag Post

I'm frustrated.
Annoyed.
Angry.
Disappointed.

And, this morning I wanted to kick myself.
I missed the Delivery Guy.
I heard the bell but I brushed it off thinking it was the neighbor's.
This is called Zi Zuo Zi Shou.
T.T

*Pushes negativity away*

*Deep breaths*

Let's focus on the good stuff shall we?

Yesterday was.. spectacular.

The day started off with good news from my orthopedic visit.
No broken bones!
May require one month or so to heal completely but its definitely good news :)

But the highlight of the day was my Psychopathology class.

One of our assignments was to submit a journal entry after every class.
And and and..
I was personally requested by the professor to share mine in class to "enhance the positive learning of others".
*shy*

I felt like a kid in primary school, standing up to read your essay out loud that kind?
Haha.
That basically sums it all.
But it ended with positive response from my class la,
no one threw eggs on me.
But the one thing that really struck me was my professor's comment after the class applauded my impromptu presentation, she said:
"If there is something more to having chills reading your journal, it is to have it read aloud in class" 

Omg.
I can fly and swell and burst of happiness I tell you.
I was thinking: I can't sing but I can cause goosebumps too! Yay! Lolol.
Ok, done with part one.

Part two was the.. presentation.
Not just any normal presentation but to lead the class in a diagnosis as well.
The presentation went very very well! Amen!
Our professor gave us approving smiles,
and we could answer all the questions without stuttering too much.
We managed the discussion pretty well too!

And somehow we made more friends cos one, everyone knows our name now.
And two, alot of them came by to congratulate us on our successful presentation.

I just feel so.. BLESSED.
All glory goes to Him!

Apart from being a humble brag,
this post serves to capture all these positive emotions.
To give me a dose of positivity whenever I feel like going down the negative spiral stairway again.
To remind me that I am still so blessed, in every way.

Sigh.
Life is full of ups and downs.
While we cannot always stay up,
we must remember that every down means we're going back up, very very soon.

Hang in there!
Perseverance is key!!

*back to assignments*

Oh ya, cannot have two lengthy posts with no pics one!

Haha.

#1 Us before the presentation.

#2 Us with the huge ass "bible" of clinical psych-ies.

#3 My current bffs. They keep my ass safe. LOL

Humpty Dumpty

My parents seem fond of that song,
and every time they sing that I think of myself as a bald egg.
Or something of that sort.

So anyway,
I fell down the stairs.
Nope, I wasn't on my phone or anything,
I just had pins and needles in my left foot.
I did not miss a step or anything,
but somehow my left foot gave way and I slipped.

And damn, I think this accounts for one of the most painful moments in my 22 years of life.

For someone with a high pain threshold as me,
I was immobilized for 3-5 minutes.
Just crouching in pain, couldn't get up.
Surprisingly, no tears.
*proud* Grown up liao. LOL

And then everything seemed ok for a while,
I stood up, went on with my mission of getting my bottle filled,
and went back up.

20 minutes later: the beginning of hell.

I couldn't sit, or stand in a certain position,
or lie down, or walk, or jump, or run.
I couldn't bend down, I couldn't go to the bathroom,
I couldn't move basically.

Ok la, maybe couldn't is a strong word.
Couldn't as in couldn't do it normally, each small movement becomes a huge pain in the ass.
LITERALLY pain in the ass because the tailbone is right there.
=.=

Sigh.
And now two days has passed with no significant improvement.
Finally dragging my ass (pun intended) to the clinic tomorrow.

Sigh.
The point of this post?
*nuthin*

I just need something to get my mind off the clinic visit tmr.
Worried la.
And scared.
Not so much on the pain but the long term consequences.
What if I cannot dance anymore?
What if I cannot wear high-heels anymore?
*cry*

Sigh. It'll be ok la I guess.
*ten fingers crossed*

Annoying Much?

I cannot comprehend people who annoys others for a living.
Ok la, obviously they did not do it on purpose.
And obviously you have the right and choice to be NOT annoyed by them.

This is just a random list of people (types) I cannot stand:

1. Zi yi wei shi kind of people. In other words, dunno much but pretending very hard to be know-all.

2. Rude people. People who dunno how to spell respect and manners.

3. Buay paiseh kind of people. Take everything for granted and demand you bow to them one.

4. Why-me?! kind of people. Like oh my god! Why me? Why I kena saman? (when obviously they did something to deserve it)

5. It's-not'my-fault-it's-the-world's-fault. Enough said.

6. Kepohs. People who poke their nose into everything and worst, think they know everything. Which brings us back to Number 1.

To balance out my mean-ness,
I need to clarify that all statements above are very VERY subjective,
and (if possible) it is not right to judge lar.

Chances are, for every type stated above,
I believe you can instantly think of someone you know.
If you have them,
be thankful, cos you're not alone.

If you dun have,
too bad, you have too little friends.
Haha! No la,
be thankful even more, cos you're dumb kind enough not to notice them.

And to balance it further,
the world is still a pretty place!
Hence, ending this post with non-annoying things,
like balloons.

Except those that go "pop" without warning.