Think you know me? think again.

Don't judge me.
You don't even know me.



It's late.
And i'm supposed to be studying for the final exam on Wednesday.
Ugh~ Screw it.

Things are changing.
For the better? Hopefully.
It was a good start,though.
Had a real fun night with ma "psycho" peeps.

Will be up soon. =)



exoh.

some things are meant to be

Was thinking of posting a "kinda" sorry-regret thingy earlier in the afternoon.

But somehow the truth weaves its way in,

presenting nothing else but a boulevard of naked reality.



And so,

why worry people?



Btw.. Best wishes for ma dearest sister.
She's gonna have her eye cut open tomorrow!
Weee~
Somebody's gonna be like meeeee! *evil grin*

Wondering

What if?
A question we always ask ourselves.
In time of pain, of regret,
"What if this never happened?"



A sign of withdrawal, a sign of fixation.
What if?
A question of the dreamer,
A sign of the loser.

Wake up.
Get up.
Solve the problem.
Get to the roots.

And yea,
it's so much easier said than done.
Sigh.

Revealing the scar is something I detest at this moment.
I'll rather laugh and goof my way thru. =)

Cacat-ed expression.
So what? =)

It got me thinking.

Life's weird at this moment.
Forget the small arguments.
They seem so out of place now.
I dun appreciate it when life takes me by surprise. =/

I'm getting real jealous.
So jealous i want somebody dead sometimes.
Lol. Joking.
Not tat i really wan her to die.
Maybe perhaps..
it wud be nice if she became fat and ugly and annoying and unpopular..
Yea, tat'll be enough. =)



Be gone with you, biatch.

Hideous

Fark it.
I can't concentrate on a single thing,
I'm paranoid,
I'm a crazy pschotic rummaging tru very single thing of yours,
just to find prove that you are still with me.

And yet,
deep down, I cud see how fugly I was,
how jealousy created my hideous mask,
and how I should put all this to a stop.
This is not me.

A stop, or an end?

I'm lost.



I'm struggling to hold on to the promise I made.
I need to bleed it out.
Help.

Blinded by Darkness

Between the paths of right and wrong,
lies the notorious grey areas.
It kills slow.

Somehow, this is a test I know.
And strong I have to be.
Putting once again my patience to the test,
my perseverance to the challenge.

I wanna hold on tight.
And I will. But if this is also the time to let go,
what can I do but to cry tears of sorrow?

I can't seem to see in the dark.
My eyes are blind, and so is my heart.

When emo-ness strikes n happiness flies

Yes, I'm emo-ing.

I'm not in good shape.
I over-ate during dinner,
have tons of work to do,
and I am so frigging tired.
Mentally and physically.
Of so many things.

And so I tot,
I have to stop emo-ing or i'll seriously kill myself due to depression.
Dun laugh,
I just might u know.

Anyway,
here's a very "overdued" update.
MATTA fair.
Yea, its been my norm to take part in each and every single MATTA held in KL.
haha, tring but somehow i love it.
Oh yes,
maybe i'm plain psycho, dun u think?
Masochistic. =)


See? I'm a happy worker. Haha


My best mate in the work place.
She's not yr loved dovey mushy mushy type of sister,
but she sure is one hell of a good friend.
At least she cares, genuinely. =)


She's from HK. Kaka - tat's her name btw.
Missing her already. >.<


Suki!
She's from HK too. I'm soo jealous of her.
Been to almost every part of the world. Hmm.

I need motivation to study.
I'm losing the oomph in everything I do.
Dun ask me why,
I just get disappointed wit time.
Efforts are to be wasted, in the end.
And so what's the use of striving for sumthing?
Nuthin to do with academic issues, but yea,
I'm just not in the mood to study.

Crying spells?
Tonight, perhaps.
Sigh.