Stress, and more

Yours truly is currently at a strange, unfamiliar place.
Surrounded by strange, unfamiliar people.
And all these added on to Inde-B stress.
Tat shud explain the weird, strange photo above.

I'm on a mission.
To finish my work today,
and to keep the old one company.

The unfamiliar-ness is killing me.
But I'm projecting all good thoughts to later where we will be spending the day together.


Summoning all positive thoughts and energy. <3

Wish me luck.

wandering.wondering

The wanderer.
She walked out of flames.
Falling into a loving embrace.
She wandered through a new path,
exploring the pathway she have not seen.
She saw the rainbow and its colors,
she smelled the fragrance of the flowers.
But the flowers came with hidden thorns,
and happiness, with pain.

She wondered.
Why was it that the sky turned red?
Why was it that the road was never straight?
She pondered on the inner rumble,
wondering what was all the rapture.
There was no clear direction,
and she sat down,
crying,
in the same old fashion.

if i die young

Thank you for being there.
Thank you for understanding.
Thank you for being the only source,
of light and hope and all I can ask for.

I'm not weak.
I'm merely exhausted.
I'm not strong,
I'm merely a great actress.

The play of life has wore me down.
The end,
I see it, I feel it.
The end isn't mine to be,
but yet,
the pain it brings,
I see and feel.

I'm perfectly fine.
I'm back to square one.

If I become a rainbow.
You'll see me shining.
Promise.

=)

who you are

I stare at my reflection in the mirror.
Why am I doing this to myself.

Losing my mind on a tiny error.
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.
To lose it all in the blur of the start.
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing.

It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising.

Just be true to who you are.



Can't get this song out.

Verge

Stress has taken its toll on this useless shell.
As if my emotions need further verification of the difficult times.
as if this would validate the fact that yes,
all I want to do is curl up, cry, and forget.

If this was a challenge Lord,
what is is that you want me to learn?
I have erased blaming out of my system,
yet you bring back the complainer in me.
Lord,
I'm tired.
I'm lost.
I cannot understand.

abandoned

Perhaps I am a passer by,
a cheater of time,
a small character of the storyline.

Perhaps I was never meant to be,
the shooting star,
but the one at far.

Perhaps this was never suppose to be it,
but because we were weak,
training came.

Perhaps I should stop and sleep,
and wander deep,
into the dream I seek.

Perhaps we all know this is not the truth,
yet sometimes there's no way,
but to think like a fool.

If only strength could equate courage,
and courage came from love,
If only confusion was nothing but mist,
and illusion was as obvious.

If only.

angelic

And so they say,
When difficulties strike,
you see one's real side.

I was taken aback.
Not by thy others but yet my own weakness.
The inability to cope.
Incompetency to be low.

I was taken aback.
By how God has situated angels around me.
The understanding friends,
the ever considerate bunch.
They put a smile to my face,
telling me the dark ain't tat bad.

Thank you.
To all of you.
and you know who you are.

Thank you.