Let's Just Be Happy

Let’s not be upset, or angry,

Let’s not be sad, or teary.

Let’s not be emotional, or true.

(Don’t let the real you, fall through.)

Let’s just be happy, he said.

I’m tired, and weary.

This is new, and fearful,

Let’s Just be happy, he said.

Let’s just be happy.

Let’s just be happy.

Let’s just be happy.

Happy, he said. 

Delusions of Grandeur

I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat

I shouldn't be crying

Tears were for the weaker days, I'm stronger now

Or so I say, but something's missing

Whatever it is, it feels like it's laughing at me

Through the glass of a two-sided mirror

Whatever it is, it's just laughing at me

And I just wanna scream

What now, I just can't figure it out

What now, I guess

I'll just wait it out, wait it out

What now, what now

I found the one, he changed my life

But was it me that changed

And he just happened to come at the right time

I'm supposed to be in love but I'm numb again

Whatever it is, it feels like it's laughing at me

Through the glass of a two-sided mirror

Whatever it is, it's just sitting there laughing at me

And I just wanna scream

What now, I just can't figure it out

What now, I guess

I'll just wait it out, wait it out

What now, please tell me, what now

There's no one to call

'Cause I'm just playing games with them all

The more I swear I'm happy

The more that I'm feeling alone

'Cause I spend every hour

Just going through the motions

I can't even get the emotions to come out

Dry as a bone but I just wanna shout

What now, I just can't figure it out

What now, I guess

I'll just wait it out wait it out

What now, somebody tell me, what now

I don't know where to go

I don't know what to feel

I don't know how to cry

I don't know, oh, oh why

I don't know where to go

I don't know what to feel

I don't know how to cry

I don't know, oh, oh why, so what now

Is it too late

The naivety.
The foolishness.

The illusion of being special.
The illusion of this, is love.

The dreams of forever.
Shattered?

The calmness of this realization.
The coldness of the world.

重犯

不期望

不失望

没要求

没心痛

再隐藏

更倔强

Closer. Further.

You are the piece of me, 

I wish i didn't need. 

After the storm

How long is the serenity going to last?

I feel the quivers still.

Ground me. Hold me still.

I need your steadfast promises, as much as they seem too good to be true. 

The end.

I was never good enough.
You were never mine.

I'm sorry.
I love you so much.
So much so much so much.