Antagonistic Acceptance

It wasn't meant to be.
The critiques were close, holding the pen, ready to overthrow.
I hung on.
And on.
And now its gone.
It was never meant to be, maybe?
The acceptance that gained criticisms.
I went against the rules, as usual.

It wasn't meant to be either.
The players complicated, insecure yet intoxicated.
I followed on.
Ever the protagonist, now I'm the ugly villain.
The acceptance that overwhelms.
I'm blessed.