Cluster Buster

I hate it when I cannot identify my own feelings.
It's the worse type,
when emotions become unidentified.

A cluster.
I call them the bundle.
Tied up in different emotions,
without any being the superior.
Shit happens.
And when you cannot comprehend,
it's gonna bother you forever.

I'm sorry.
Perhaps it wasn't me to blame,
but I play a role.

I feel guilty,
I feel annoyed at myself,
I feel stupid,
I feel happy I was there to help,
I feel angry cos it was my problem to start with,
I feel frustrated,
I feel bad,
I feel comforted that I did not panic,
I feel annoyed again for being bothered by it.

And now it ends.
With a sleepless night.

p/s: Can someone stop the banging sound that is replaying non-stop?