After the storm

A huge step taken.
You know what my babe doll?
You are so much more courageous than I am.

I was a coward.
Maybe I still am.
Had my hands over the other's heart,
and when it turned cold,
mine was the one shattered.

A simple change.
A loud message.
From attached to single,
I never had the courage.
Nor the privilege to tell the world,
I walked out of my dream, so surreal.

So baby,
you're doing great.
With tears of joy and sorrow,
you know I'll always be in your tomorrow.

For things might end,
and love may change.
For promises may send,
false hope and the wrong message.

But you know,
and I know too.
That whatever happens,
I'll be here for you.

再辛苦还有我和你。♥

hurdles

If life is a racetrack,
and we are the runners,
I am thankful for the hurdle that tripped me.
For the fall brought my eyes to see,
wonders that I thought were only possibilities.

and then we moved on.
and then we continued running.
for life is short,
and time is flying.

A smooth run at first,
but now we come face to face.
The first hurdle.

It wasn't high, nor impossible.
Yet it posed a challenge,
for it required a leap that was unknown.

We took the leap.
Or at least, I think we did.
We tripped, we fell flat.
But to me,
it wasn't that bad.

For it was with you.
For the hurdle forced us to.
To comprehend understanding.
To bring out something new.

世界.太多.不开心

世界太多的烦恼。

除了强颜欢笑，
还可以怎么熬？

想闹，
他人面前，
担心自己没礼貌。
回到，
一个人的空间，
又好像没有大哭的必要。

疲劳，
好像，
真的好像，
就可以这样死掉。

相信这一种煎熬，
都是生命的提要。
要学会长大，
学会坚强，
学会什么都能够不要。

是学业也好，
是感情也好，
操劳，
迟早，
被忧郁套牢。

annoying arrogance

I got cooked up.
Flared up.
Short tempered.
Then I sit and wonder,
what brought on the sudden anger?

Because you have no rights to judge me.
You look at me through yr limited understanding,
judging and making your own conclusions.
About ME.

You would say I was overly conscious.
And perhaps that is true.
But then again,
what rights you have,
to judge me by your rule?

I should not be bothered.
Yet your arrogance made it impossible.
The way you treated people around you,
those who are dear to me.
I cannot dislike you,
for that would hurt the one who matters.

But I would not deny.
As this surge of disgust is too strong.
I wud have care less if u're a total stranger.
Yr actions make me gag.

Now it is anger.
That fills this empty knowing.
For how you judged me naively,
I will not judge you back.

Episode Number?

August.
And we're now left with less than 4 months.

Time flies.
Something I can't deny.
Time heals.
A concept I'm clinging on to.
Too tight maybe?
Too tight it hurts.

Have I made progress?
I'm eager to know, yet shunned by the truth.

Topsy Turvy.
When will things get back on track?
Detached.
When will I see through the eyes of this girl, ever again?

Cluster Buster

I hate it when I cannot identify my own feelings.
It's the worse type,
when emotions become unidentified.

A cluster.
I call them the bundle.
Tied up in different emotions,
without any being the superior.
Shit happens.
And when you cannot comprehend,
it's gonna bother you forever.

I'm sorry.
Perhaps it wasn't me to blame,
but I play a role.

I feel guilty,
I feel annoyed at myself,
I feel stupid,
I feel happy I was there to help,
I feel angry cos it was my problem to start with,
I feel frustrated,
I feel bad,
I feel comforted that I did not panic,
I feel annoyed again for being bothered by it.

And now it ends.
With a sleepless night.

p/s: Can someone stop the banging sound that is replaying non-stop?

ouch

Tell me what can I do to make this feeling go away?
To stop and stay,
To make your tiredness go away.

The single syllable, you make my heart feel.
It's more than just a lil,
I wanna hug you so you could feel.

Sigh.

I am Incompetent,
For i fear i add to your burden.

Grateful for being able to stay by your side.
At times like this,
I treasure every moment throughout this night.

What would life be?
If it wasn't for this exact day, 3 months back?

ILY. <3