where's numbness when u need it

With love, comes hate.
With happiness, comes sorrows.
With laughters, comes tears.

How could i almost overlooked the ugly truth?
The harsh reality of two sided truth.
The counter-effect to everything.

A wrong step perhaps?
A sign of weakness.
Indulgence caught me unaware.

And now I pay.
The consequences.
The dark. The tears. The uncertainty.
Too familiar, I say.

No.
Thought stopping.
Mind halting.
I cannot do this.
I cannot let myself go back there.
No.

I'm not ready.

I don't want to.

Idiosyncratic Indulgence

what do you see?

Of happiness and sorrows.
Of tears and laughters.

Of ways that are peculiar.
Idisyncratically mine.

Indulging.
Comprehending the consequences,
yet not knowing where to stop.

I'm no longer sane.

I'm walking with no direction.
Running away from something I cannot see.

Tell me I'll be okay.

All in favor, say Aye.

Antagonistic Acceptance

It wasn't meant to be.
The critiques were close, holding the pen, ready to overthrow.
I hung on.
And on.
And now its gone.
It was never meant to be, maybe?
The acceptance that gained criticisms.
I went against the rules, as usual.

It wasn't meant to be either.
The players complicated, insecure yet intoxicated.
I followed on.
Ever the protagonist, now I'm the ugly villain.
The acceptance that overwhelms.
I'm blessed.

Instinctive Intervention

I barged in, hurt and wounded.
The past that would not let go.
Your open embrace.
A fall back, a rebound, they say.
Instinctive, yet rightful, I say.

I struggled, dazed and puzzled.
Trying to find my way, the present was unclear.
Your guiding hand.
An infatuation, a recuperative symptom, they say.
An interlude, yet capable of being more, I say.

I stopped, moving no further.
The past holds too much, the future too little.
Your promises.
Another deception, like any other, they say.
An intervention, permanent, I say.

idiot

we were never the mushy slash lovey dovey type.
but u know i love you. =)



These pictures are the ones we'll look back and cry about.
Time flies.
And i know I'll miss u girls.

Love u all. <3

Happy birthday once again, idiot-who-is-at-Genting-her-second-home!


Tried something out of the norm.
p/s: You know this is for you. =)


Nite lovelies. =)

they say..

..Love hurts.

I can't help but agree.

It hurts when its new.
It's raw and needs time to brew.

It hurts when it seems perfect.
Beautiful yet you know not what to expect.

It hurts when it turns ugly.
Cos the people you love dun seem who they used to be.

It hurts when its absent.
You're living life without its essence.

It hurts when you think its true.
Cos you know with love, pain comes too.

The most excruciating truth?
We can't seem to get enough.