Saturday, January 31, 2009

Stronger, We Must Be

Its been almost a week,
and thank you for all your concern.
some of u gave me yr word of care, it helped me a lot.
some gave me a surprisingly cold response,
but yea, i understand it is none of yr business n i dun need yr sympathy.

My pups is doing all right.
He is strong, he learns from every fall.
He is not beaten, and by God's will, he will stand up strong.
He has accepted Jesus,
and for the first time in 19 years,
he wud be attending service in my church 2moro morning.
What more cud i ask for?

There's no denying that his eye is badly damaged.
He may not be able to drive, or read, or even see as he once did,
but He will regain all these abilities,
it is just a matter of time.
Patience, we need.
Endurance, we must have.
Stronger, we must become.

Everything happens for a reason.
And i trust in Him that this is the time of salvation.
I need strength,
to fight back tears.
I need more strength,
to be there for him.
I must and I will.
No matter how dark it may seem.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Skipped a Beat

Aching legs, yet wonderful feeling.
we shopped the whole day like there was no tomorrow.
was out with my baby bulan the entire day..
was oni supposed to shop for "CNY clothes",
but ended up with alot of many other things..

watched a movie.
not bad as a time killer.
storyline was quite boring though.
something happenend right b4 our show started.
baby wanted to get a cup of float from A&W,
and the stoopid a**holes left a puddle of water on the floor.
baby bulan slipped and fell.
may seem hilarious now,
but i was worried sick then.
heart fell right to the bottom,
and only regained its pace when i saw bulan standing back up.

the manager got scolded by me like hell, of cos!
hey, someone cud get seriosuly hurt u know!
dah lah nak buat complain,
had to wait for the manager for around 10 mins!
super super pissed off then.
maybe i'm over-reacting,
but for all i know,
i had the right to demand an apology, right?

well,
like the title of the movie i watched today: all's well end well.
we had a free float and curly fries as well as discounts from the manager.
oh wells,
at least he is trying to compensate.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Prayer Works

Oh yea, and before i forget,
I wanna give all glory to God for today's parking space!
simple it may seem,
yet it is prove that He the Mighty One blesses us in every single way.
Prayer works, peeps!

hahaz.. i Shud pray hard for Lifespan and Public Speaking... Hmm..

Happy Birthday Mumsie

I think i'm becoming very lazy.
well, u can't blame me bcos maybe i am just exhausted,
or tired? or confused? or overwhelmed? or..
to sum it up,
so far, classes had not been a bed of roses, at all!

our presentation sucked!
it painted the whole day grey.
trying hard to think from the brighter side, if any,
and trying VERY hard as well not to blame others.

oh wells,
Happy Birthday Mumsie!!
You're the best mummy one can ever get,
and i love you to to bits..
Pups bought her a basket of flowers,
and generally,
twas a simple but happy celebration.

Why did I say i was lazy again?
oh yea..
about the piccies tat I promised,
I'll try my very best to upload them asap.
As for Mumsie's bday,
I'll TRY to upoad them asap too.
Hahaz, i'm lazy.

I love you soo much Mummy!

Nite nite~

Monday, January 19, 2009

Been there, Done that

When you lift up your hopes,
you are more likely to be crushed with disappointment.
I understand.
Been there, done that.
That is why i have given up all hope,
I chose to let go of things that wasn't mine,
of works that will be out of my locus of control.

It was no use despite my efforts.
I can vividly remember the great disappointment I felt.
How my heart was broken into pieces,
I found it unfair,
yet i endured as i cherished every single one of you.
Through today's brief catch up,
I understand how you are feeling.

Perhaps we should look at it from a more objective point of view.
How we percieve may not be the truth.
At most times,
the world may be a camouflage,
the reality may be missed out,
and what you see is not the reality.

For the time being,
I like just being with you.
One true friend is more than enough for me.
No such thing as destroyed or broken,
but maybe we all need a time out to be able to realise what we want.

On the other side,
we may have a happy CNY after all.
who knows?
^^

Friday, January 16, 2009

Scene @ The Movies

super duper tired.
but as a sneak peek:
I took pics with deliciously gorgeous ppl. *drool*

I can almost imagine Kelvin's face!
WooHoo!
will update piccies 2mr.
Till then~

Nite nite~

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Number 2

this post is one day late.
tat is, to clarify before i start my ramblings.

i named yesterday Number 2.
lotsa second timeys.

Second time in 2 weeks that we had a blackout during class.
Second time in 2 weeks that i scratched my baby car.
Second time in 2 weeks that i was stuck in some kind of stupid parking situation.
Second time in 2 years that i knocked a Kancil.

hmm.. tat makes the list, doesn't it?

so looking forward to CNY, yet so NOT looking forward as well.
Yup, I know I'm plain weird.

Monday, January 12, 2009

LifeSpan

ok.
Carmen has decided to put her teeny-weeny Lifespan knowledge to full use.
Wicked isn't it?
Only one official lecture and i'm trying so hard.
Har har.

U know the part where it says Life grows in a multidirectional way?
Yep. It can happen in two different ways.
Either multidirectional in the same aspect or in two different aspects.
Get it? No?
Ok.
Examples.

when u age, your social circle maybe getting smaller (arrow down),
but yr cognitive aspect may be getting richer. (arrow up)

if given in the same aspect, your social circle with frens maybe getting smaller (arrow down),
but your relationships with family may be getting closer. (arrow up)

Well, this is not revision time.
I just happen to stumble on this piece of knowledge,
and to find with surprise tat it has been taking place in my life, at this very moment.
But mine is in the same aspect, as in really same.
Friends. n Friends only.
A group of 8, and we're all falling apart.
All arrows point down the drain,
while perhaps only two remained.
Tat's sad isn't it.

*sigh*
But this is Life.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Upset-ed

Gee is upset cos Ray's parents are total scumbags.
Baby is upset cos she is weird.
I'm upset cos they are acting childish.

Of all days, Sunday becomes our emo day.

Ahh..
and there goes my weekend! =(

Tag Virgin

Ok. So here goes. Chian Chian tagged me.
It's my first time so be patient with it k?
I dun even know if I'm on the right path.
But anyway, here it is.
Tag Virgin's very first:


Directions : Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave a comment (“You’re tagged!”), and to read your blog, you can’t tag a person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me, let me know when you’ve posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.


1. I'm a green freak.
2. constantly on diet but never slim. (getting fatter somehow)
3. i love to cook.
4. always convinced that i have cancer. (dunno why, just somehow)
5. cry baby.
6. super scared of fishes.
7. hate parsley a lot.
8. have a big head. (and proud of it!)
9. adore chocolates.
10. irritated by my pastor. (sorry... )
11. have slow-growing hair
12. cam-whorer (tat's pretty obvious)
13. easily chickened-out by ghost stories
14. reads romance novels
15. wanna be someone (like.. you know.. a super star perhaps? XD )
16. lazy but has great dreams (i know.. actions speaks louder than words.. )


I tag:
1. Yaya
2. Junny
3. Lok Wee
4. Jojo (she's pretty busy though..)
5. Lam (he's even busier.. )

Yup, I know wat u're thinking.
I know. its kinda pathetic when u dun have enough frens to tag.
Oh wells,
better than nuthin ay?

XOXOXO

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Responsibility

I dun see wat's so hard.
Responsibility.
Its not rocket science.
Be Responsible for your words.
Be Responsible for your actions.
Tats all I'm asking for.




Anyway~
Tat doesn't stop me from loving you.

You

You make me want you so much you leave me breathless.
I just simply love you.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

还是想回家

Solace,
一个我寻找慰藉的地方。
新的一年,
新的房子,
一样带来了新的麻烦。
因为些小误会,和妈妈起了争执。
极度的不开心,唯一想到的,
就是想回家。

这儿感觉太虚伪,
给人的感觉总是一个开心的度假。
它,
没有可以装的下我不开心的地方,
一切的发泄,
它都无法容纳。

气着,
我原来已经把车驶到旧家门外。
只见它,被人侵犯着。
油漆的,装修的,
一大堆。

多么想喝止,
却知道他们都会无动于衷。
一口气冲到房间去,
什么不开心,
什么委屈,
一下子,
全都发泄出来了。
如果我的房间有双手,
我肯定它是在抱着我。
因为它给的安慰,
无可取代。

它,
不再一样了。
熟悉,却即将改变。
而现在的它,
依然是多么的陌生。
人人都说时间是万物的灵药。
那到底,
我还需要多少时间?

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Of Parking n Classes

Classes ended today in a whirlwind of fear and uncertainty.
(not to mention boredom n sleepiness)
classes were interesting.
interestingly challenging.
but thankfully we were able to settle our ever-so-frustrating timetable.

the lecturers were nice.
at least so far.
i change my statement. EVERY subject needs a lot of cognition processes.
Not only cognitive psych.

oh yea..
my baby car got scratched..
thanks to Mr Grey Innova, number plate 223.
to Mr selfish n Inconsiderate driver,
may God bless u!
Jesus told us to forgive,
and i will.
but forgive doesn't equal forget?
geez.
at least not now.
i still can't figure out how someone can park their car so inconsiderately! >.<

to sum it up,
today is not such a bad day.
at least yaya is studying in ucsi now.
i'm sooo happy abt this.. ^^

p/s: KC wasn't as bad as i tot. and who knows, i may like his classes after all..

Good nite~

Psyched-Psycho

first day of classes n we were greeted by a straight three n a half hour class.
thank God for toilet breaks.
Papa Bear was really cute, but Cognitive was really un-cute.
He was lecturing in English,
but he might as well speak in a foreign teddy bear language as i cud not understand most of it.
thank God for the blackout as well,
as it shorten the tormenting period by one hour.
*sigh*
guess the blackout was the best thing that happened today.

dreadings tomorrow's classes.
and i'm not the only one. *wink*
at least we're done with cognitive this week.


quote of the day:
Cognitive Psychology requires a whole lot of cognition processes.
And i couldn't agree more~

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Kye Li

twas short. but really sweet.
met up with Kye Li n Gin Li at 1 Utama today.
I guess best friend's dun need to talk much to stay close?
Hadn't seen each other for 2 yrs but yet we had so much to talk abt.

Me n Gin Li. She's damn fair. *sigh*

Me n Kye Li. She din change much n i still love her so ^^

I guess shopping's the best ice-breaker? Hahaz.. Tried on this from Pull n Bear but twas too pricey. Hmm.. Maybe after i get the angpau's during CNY? hahaz..
Dream on ~
p/s: Gonna miss u heaps again Kye Li.
We may not talk often but i really do cherish spending quality time with u.
All da best for yr 2009.
Take care ~

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Karaoke Session


hey there~
my voice is hoarse n kinda dry.
but twas all worth it..had a karaoke session with the cousins n aunts.
my, were they ever sporting!
welcome home aunt cici n Shion..
love u guys ~ altho u may look weird n freaky^^



love u ppl~









Kisses~Good Nite! ^^

Friday, January 2, 2009

Morning Ramblings

Good morning ppl!
Had a good nite's sleep me dearies?
brother n cousins are still sleeping soundly as i blog away..
hahaz..
guess they were really tired from staying up too late..
coming to the end of holidays..
yea.. a bit sad but nevertheless excited as well!
going back to uni next monday,
frankly,
i dunno wat to expect~

in the meanwhile,
kinda worried now.
can't seem to add subjects yet..
hmm..
what to do?

Thursday, January 1, 2009

First Day = "First" Day

i'm so sleepy.
so damn bloody sleepy.
so y izzit it tat i'm awake, u ask?
many many thanks to Mr Mensus,
who incidentally decided to pay a visit right on New Year's Day.
Touched,
ain't i shud be?
but damn it! curses!
seriously,
i badly want to sleep.