sometimes

..and this is one of the days when you wake up and resent living.

the demands placed on you,

by yourself and by others.

taking up your space to even breathe.

suffocation,

sometimes.

They call it stress.

I call it life.

放不下。

金牛非要固执不可。

是感情，

是学业，

是事物，

是过去，

是回忆，

是无法改变的事实。

我从学不会放手。

累了自己，

累了别人。

无心的话，

却是最真实的感叹。

学会接受，

忠言逆耳的事实。

只是，

我还没学会，

从这儿，

我该怎样往前走。

A lil bit of September

Cuzzies' staying over.
hasn't been this happening since a long time.
Sneaked out at 3am to get take-away KFC.
Imagine.
The fat-ass ness of the action?
Superb.

Anyway,

a recap of the month of September so far.

Bangkok/Pattaya with the Babes

This was somewhat before September.

A non-hassle, no begging others trip to Bangkok and Pattaya.

Crazy shopping spree. =)

Its always nice to travel with people you feel comfortable with.

MATTA Fair came head first.

Tiring, as usual.

Packed, as usual.

Satisfying, as usual as well.

The unusual thing?

Nothing was the same anymore.

Numbed may be the best term.

Po's birthday was next.

Judging by the piccies,

you enjoyed it I hope? =)

p/s: special thanks to all who made it tat night. It wud have not been possible without you people. =)

And then it was off to Singaland.

It was simple, relaxing, and pretty interesting.

Coming right up. =)

Repetition

Sometimes,
I get lost in the maze of your mysterious ways.

Sometimes,
I do not know the appropriate step to take.

Sometimes,
I ponder on the possibility of me at fault.

Sometimes,
I wonder whether I place the stakes too high.

Sometimes,
I just want to know what to do.
And how to.

Most of the time,
I don't get the needed answer.

Solitude

It is not the first,
won't be the last.
I was taught how to put on an act,
but not to accept.

How unfortunate.
But practical.

Where is my base?
How do I stand up for myself,
when I know I don't have the rights.
Hypocritical,
the worse kind,
me.

Hear no evil.
But they won't stop.
Speak no evil?
They have showed me how impossible.

Taking up the blame for my own actions.

Trudging.
Solitary comes into action.

Somethings never change.

Some pain never go away.

Last Semester

I'm old.
But I'm not alone.
*evil grin*

Pinky promises that we shall make the best out of our last semester?


♥-ing each and every one of you. =)

Merdeka?

Right before the fireworks subside,
the people cheer.
A celebration, it seems.
Yet,
it is no better than a rotten apple.

A beautiful outlook?
Even this, is crumbling.
With macro issues such as global warming and poverty,
one cannot sustain own's desire: of greed and selfishness.

This is Malaysia.

What am I saying?
I am disappointed.

Who's fault to blame?
For this,
I can't say anything.
For I don't want to disappear, too.

Multiracial?
Multicultural?
Or multiracism?

You be the judge.