Back to square one

You said to wait till you get back.
I kept my hopes up high.

Restless, yet hope ignites.
The thought tat we might be able to talk this over.

and then i forgot.
How cud i stupidly miss,
the big huge wall that stands between our feet.

I tried calling out,
I did.
But then again,
I cudn't reach.

I dun wanna leave

It's not the same.
It can't be.

I'm trying to drill this in my mind.

Despite the exact same loneliness, the dread, the feeling of despair.
I refuse to acknowledge the similarities,
for I know,
this is different.

why do I see myself at the top of a spiral staircase then?
What if this is only the beginning of the end?

The distance.
The miscommunication.
The little cracks.

The heartache that follows suit.
The sleepless nights.
The tearless cries when you know no one would care.

All so familiar, yet I can do nothing.

Im on a road called doubt,
and now i realized how I have stupidly depend on you,
too much.
As needy as before,
as demanding as ever.

How do i get back on track before its too late?

Helado

I see the trail I left behind.
I see how it has lost it precious moments.
What is eluded from me,
is the reason that lies between,
and the road that lies ahead.

The source of confusion is self-inflicted, they say.
If the choice was clear,
why still do words and stories hurt me like no other?

Its a circle, a mean cycle.

I wanna get off.

Estoy muy triste.

Easy.
Straightforward.

Por que?

Something's misplaced.
Not lost.
Yet it had not return.

Mi mejor amiga esta lejos de mi.
Muchos lejos.

The metaphorical distance.
It kills.

Helado.
Haha.

The little initials

Hola readers!
Had a happy Chinese New Year?

Time for updates, I know.
But my mind is blank.

Except for maybe this.

I miss you.
I miss talking to you.

Well, I guess we dun talk tat much.
But I miss how I know you were there even though when we are not talking to each other.
There, I think that explains it best.

Guess the time isn't right, or is it?

Still, time has it. :)