Lao Ma: RIP

yep.
it was kinda shocking.
to go shopping one day n to hear tat yr seriously ill great grandmother had just passed away.
crossover.
emigrated.
wateva u cal it.

the tests n challenges He wants us to face,
as a family.
united we must stand.
she was a great servant of God,
and we were actually quite relieved tat He had finally called her home.
she was suffering.
n to think tat she might be having a good cup of tea with my grandfather now.
geez..
i'm positive they're happier now.
right?

death causes nausea in me.
not the stench but merely the tot of it.
i cudn't explain.
i m not afraid of death in particular,
nor worried abt my own death.
it's juz tat the tot of seeing sum1 lying in a wooden box makes me nauseatic.

*sigh*
i dun understand myself.
yea.
i'm plain weird.

Happy Birthday Chian!

celebrated chian's birthday 2day..
she was surprised..
n happy too..
or at least i hope she is.. ^^
Happy Big Two-O my dear!!

it's almost full moon..
my other "time-of-the-month"..
i'm sad.
no particular reason.
just sad.
i wonder helplessly,
y must God create unhappiness.
yea..
i know the theoretical answers,
a thousand and one debates over this question.
but seriously, WHY?

Spooky Spooky

i have alwiz enjoyed ghost stories..
to hear abt the paranormal,
or personal experience of strange encounters..
but, i think the important question here,
is whether i believe in what my ear is taking in?

allow me to elaborate.
as like yin and yang, male n female,
i believe there is a opposition to everything.
When there is black, there wud be white,
and when there is good,
evil follows suit.
i wud prefer to desbribe these "ghosts" as a negative force.
i adhere to the explanation tat they exist,
but not necesarily visible to all of us.

personally,
i dun think tat science can explain it all.
let's just face it tat science itself has its boundaries,
just as:
how is it able to explain the presence of God?
(the irony comes in)
but, as a psych student speaking,
i wud still have to emphasis on the fact tat the human mind can play tricks.
things tat may seem abnormal to us may be easily explained in another culture.

i'm tempted to have a lil debate with my scientific self..
but oh wells..
CARMEN IS STILL WORKING AT MATTA FAIR!
so..
it is definitely not the ryte time to talk 2 myself yet.
*sigh*
stupid freezing PWTC!...

Morning Freeze

Its freezing..
And there's 10 more hours to go..
I'll so be "free-ze-ted" by then..
Free to go..
yet frozen to the spot..

Ahh..
The irony of this realistic world..

The Official Ceremony

This is stupid..
really stupid..
and i feel stupid too..
for announcing tat:
I FINALLY HAVE A BLOG!

ok..
dun wanna get too cooked up here..
its not ma 1st blog anyway..
seriously..
its just my first english blog..
a-ha! see the difference?
at least i'm not a blogging idiot..
i'm not a blogging virgin k ?
obscene language..
juz the thing tat wud provoke jo 2 gimme tat dirty look..
who cares?
i'm still in a good mood..


p/s: its the most unsuitable time of the century to start a blog now..
like DUH! i'm suppose to smile n get customers to buy my tour packages!
awwww.. but again.. who cares? *sigh*
the working days of MATTA Fair~