wat the..

i seriously dun get u.
i'm really pissed off, seriously.
u're not a small kid anymore,
n i m not obliged to make u happy.
for goodness sake!

so wat if u're my younger sister?
putting the blame on me for no apparent reason is juz too much.
n even if u really want to do tat,
at least come out with a valid reason.
thank you.

Rainbow

say bye bye to exams..
*grin*
happy happy days ahead.

i hate the weather.
nuthin else but rain, rain and more rain.
it's chilly,
it's moody,
it's just.. unhappy.

but,
a rainbow.
i saw it hanging in the sky.
literally in front of me.
had the urge to stop my car ,
right in the middle of a busy highway.
oops.


it reminds me of an advice i often hear.
perseverance.
to encounter happiness,
u must first experience sadness.
in order to see the light,
u must first know wat is darkness.
i was negative towards the weather,
grumbling abt how it spoiled the day.
yet i neglected tat,
evrything happens for a reason.
and there is two sides for every lil thing.

yep.
the rainbow had the cheek to remind me of how lucky i am.

Fear

it was a sudden rush of fear.
visioning something tat is a lil impossible.
the devil's work.
and tats why trusting in Him is important.
to leave all yr anxieties n fear to the One n Only.
to put yr uncertainties n ambiguities in His Hands.
to obtain peace n calmness tru praying.
I m thankful for Yr presence in my life.
Hear my doubts n bless him Lord.
Put Yr arms around this child of yrs.


Amen

Korean Drama

let us just love each other.
let us not be afraid to be childish,
or sorry,
or heart broken.

I'm Sorry

i'm really sorry papa.
sorry for the lies,
and the irresponsibly bad time management.
i have not fogotten yr teachings,
nor forsake the values u instiled.
its just ..
i'm sorry.

thank u 4 waiting up.
i know u're really worried.
and thank u 4 yr trust,
i m trying n will continue to change.
improvement will be a matter of time.
(or so i hope)

praying hard that u wil understand
the importance of punctuality.
i love u but this bad habit has to stop.
we will work it out 2gather k?
pray hard~

So Unfair

Life's just unfair.
similarities outdo differences.
yet we are so diferent in so many ways.
especially those tat really matters.
those tat i crave for.
she's living a life i really really wish for.

nope.
i'm not a procrastinator,
nor am a big complainer.
dun get me wrong,
i'm contented,
in many ways.
grateful,
in even more ways.

yet,
ter is alwiz a time when i can't help but sit n think:
y is life so unfair?

Shopping

Retail therapy definitely works for me.
wat else is better than indulging in buying cheap beautiful clothes,
or to-die-for shoes?!
gasp!
i'm now a proud owner of 6 new shoes!
can u imagine?
SIX NEW SHOES!
i'm not tat scary, really.
i dun splurge on expensive stuff,
i just enjoy the process of buying.
tats all.
really, frankly.

but it helped me forget.
it made me happier today.
went shopping with mum n aunt n sis.
n of cos the pesky lil monkeys.
they were pestering us 2 go home.
as usual.
tat didn't damper my shopping spirit though.
managed to make it a "very fruitful" trip.
*grin*

so why not?
i hate fighting over small little things.
but yet we seem to do so often.
even when we are hundreds of miles apart.
i hate feeling happy,
but then deflated right after,
as if all the happiness is slipping away.
through a hole my dear.
a hole left behind everytime we fight.

i hate it.