Delusions of Grandeur

I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat

I shouldn't be crying

Tears were for the weaker days, I'm stronger now

Or so I say, but something's missing

Whatever it is, it feels like it's laughing at me

Through the glass of a two-sided mirror

Whatever it is, it's just laughing at me

And I just wanna scream

What now, I just can't figure it out

What now, I guess

I'll just wait it out, wait it out

What now, what now

I found the one, he changed my life

But was it me that changed

And he just happened to come at the right time

I'm supposed to be in love but I'm numb again

Whatever it is, it feels like it's laughing at me

Through the glass of a two-sided mirror

Whatever it is, it's just sitting there laughing at me

And I just wanna scream

What now, I just can't figure it out

What now, I guess

I'll just wait it out, wait it out

What now, please tell me, what now

There's no one to call

'Cause I'm just playing games with them all

The more I swear I'm happy

The more that I'm feeling alone

'Cause I spend every hour

Just going through the motions

I can't even get the emotions to come out

Dry as a bone but I just wanna shout

What now, I just can't figure it out

What now, I guess

I'll just wait it out wait it out

What now, somebody tell me, what now

I don't know where to go

I don't know what to feel

I don't know how to cry

I don't know, oh, oh why

I don't know where to go

I don't know what to feel

I don't know how to cry

I don't know, oh, oh why, so what now