新年新万象

快新年了
脸书满满都是准备过年的消息
其实心里还真的有些酸酸的
但说不上伤心
也并没有遗憾
毕竟是自己的选择
自己就该负责

只是
还是想家
还是想念了
在这儿我也不是不开心的
我有一个很疼我的他
说得上是幸福的小女人吧
但是怎么说彼此的不同和分别
就在这时候特别的闪烁
提醒我
要是选择了这条路
一样是不容易的

天啊
我应该就是天生爱挑战吧

January 2014

Is the world coming to an end?

Is there anything we can do about it?

Oh before we go further on this morbid topic, welcome to 2014:

A new year, a new beginning. A change in the way we sign the date at the bottom of the page.

I don't see anything to be excited about. 

And with this NEW year,

The same old shit, same old challenges, same old hardship, same old me.

You're still in school; doing the same boring homework,

Or maybe you're still doing the same thing at the same job you hate;

so what is new really?

Why the fuck do we celebrate the coming of a new year as if it is something really exciting?

Bullshit. 

I sound so bitter. Which really isn't the case. I'm just weird. 

This year's epiphany is that new and exciting and being just different is really a matter of perception.

I realize I'm going to the same school, studying about the same old things, but yet I find something new in every class i go to, a new information, or a new way to handle people i find annoying and hateful. I find joy in still being a student, i love slaving myself to achieve the best grades possible. I even enjoy being beaten down and challenged sometimes by things and tasks i find difficult, followed by the sense of achievement when i finally conquer that one exam or assignment. It's fun, and it's coming to an end. That's not fun. 

But maybe 2013 has really changed me. What am I saying, of course it has!

I'm dealing with the same insecurities and uncertainties, maybe even more, but yet hope and joy and most importantly of all faith seems to lead the way perfectly fine. 

Faith in God's plan, in my own ability to adapt and persevere no matter how bad the situation may be, not that it will be bad lol, but also faith in that you know, things always work out for the best. If you know what I mean. 

I've got so many things to look forward to. SO many.

And so many things to be grateful for. 

Life is overwhelming sometimes, but that is life. 

And i enjoy it, a lot.