No-Eyes-See

I feel the need to keep my eyes shut everytime i see disgusting-annoying-frustrating things.
See no evil.
Hear no evil.
Thus, speak no evil.

How many times have i gone thru this?
I analyzed my feelings, my emotions, and yet I find no reason to accept wat u have done.
Its betrayal. And u know it.
Dun give me bull-shit reasons.
Dun tell lies to cover yr intentions.
DO NOT spit yr poisonous stories into my ears.

But of cos,
I put on a perfect facade.
I know wat u are. Oh yes, I have seen yr kind one times too many.

Sorry peeps,
this topic is getting really bored i know.
but i need to justify myself by letting it out.
releasing.
perhaps by doing this i can go on with my pretense.
The persona i so carefully crafted for u, the one and only.

Sigh.
I am never evil and I will nvr speak bad of u.
I hold on to the memories we once shared,
and i hope you do too.
Somehow.

Water Brains

Sorry.
Can't help it.
But Miss Carmen is in a HYPER mood.

Lol.
Going out with bubu this saturday.
Hopefully yaya can join us larr.
Hahaz.

This post is actually dedicated to the one with water brains - Geetha a/p Rakwan.
Lol.
And i missed many ppl today.
Getting emo and nostalgic.

Bipolar.
Lalalalala~

It's hard

I'm not ok.
So stop asking.
U shud know how i feel,
u,
of all people.

I'm disappointed,
angry,
sad,
confused,
lost,
scared,
furstrated,
most importantly,
i'm hurt.


give me a valid explanation.
i need it like a smoker needs his ciggies.
how do i assure myself,
when u have nuthin better to say for yrself?

its permanent.
its sad i know.
but u can't just tatoo it on my heart and expect to walk away just like tat.

Another Quickie

Noticing tat some ppl are busy updating their once-dead blogs,
I decided to do my bloggie some fairness by at least sayin a few words.
XD

Dinner at SHOGUN was fun.
It was nice. Wat do i call it? Fellowship moments. Hahaz.
This I have pictures. but obviously have to collect first la, not wit me now.

tomorrow's PHYSIO TEST is not so fun.
I've had enough of the brain and i can't seem to organize me tots.
not to blame the flower (tat starts with a "D") but her notes are really "superficial".

oh. had my second committee meeting today.
Sigh. some ppl takes things too lightly. sadly, there was no committment from all and it was pretty obvious.
Best joke of the day? The particular someone thinks there is no problem at all!
Imagine tat!! the whole world cud be turning upside down and she said "nothing"!

Btw, happy birthday Ms Joanna.
Happy 19th. hoped u understand y i did not join u guys for the dinner,
but then again, its not like my absence wud be felt. Rite? = =

Yu Pei, i still dun like u for cutting off wat i had to say. Lol.

Nite nite ppl. Gotta rest my neurons now. Save my action potentials for 2mr.
I hope the ligands find their binding sites.
and i hope the sites of action r still there 2mr.
Insanity. Sorreeeeeeee.......

Grow Up

I so need to blog.
Darn. I feel sorry for my bloggie.
Only turning to it when problems arise.
Oh wells, have to let it out.
Dun wanna be an anal-retentive person. >.<

People, grow up!
For u, I love u but perhaps u really have to stop acting so fake.
i know its yr natural way f communication but sumtimes,
just sumtimes it is too much for us to bear.

For u, stop feeding her with all the tots.
it is not yr fault and i know u have yr points.
yet cant u see tat u guys r from different worlds?
its not fair tat u poison her tots like tat n leave her to snap out of it alone!

and u, understand yrself more n pls realize yr biggest advantage n disadvantage is the inability to act,
and in this case, it is bad.
yr actions are plain evil n u KNOW it!
its just no excuse.

Geez,
i'm not taking sides and i'm not tying to say who's right or wrong.
But i tot with an average age of 45,
u ppl wud be able to see through all these "childish" stuff!

God bless ye ppl's cute little thinking mind.
Love u ppl, but do change for goodness sake.
Gah~

F-R-I-E-N-D

This is for you.
It took me the world's courage to open up,
and I knew I was walking on thin ice.
I felt relieved, and really really lucky.
I felt real.

Honestly,
I dunno where this is gonna lead me.
But, thank you so much.
Understanding helps.
But I understand how rejection can come into the pic.

Anyway,
thanks and thanks once more.


p/s: Good Luck n Oh I Do EnVy the Sweetness! XD

Sorree

Dead blog. I know. Sorry ppl.
The last time i checked, many blogs were dead too,
soooo... i guess its kinda normal? *fingers crossed*

a few updates:
No 1: decided to go for prommie!
bimbotic talks during class,
from dress to shoes to hair to makeup to shuttle to transport.......
yada yada yada...
the list goes on.
actually, its the only thing to look forward to this semester ain't it gals?

No 2: joined committee for Psych Club.
quite happening, quite suitable for me. XD
at least i dun feel left out or sumthing.

No 3: My mama will be down from HK next week!
YooHoo! not my real mum dumbie, my "fake mum".
Hahaz. anyway, it wud be fun. havent seen her for ages.

No 4: My stupid right eye may need a freaking surgery.
Tat i'll update this saturday.
after the final report is out. >.<
Not good. T.T

No 5: I shall be busy working.
A bit bored this time though, and we just realized the money's not tat good.
Gah~ but then again, responsibility comes first. *sigh* Me being the ever responsible person. Hahaz.

So here it is.
My planner, organizer, updater all-in-one.
Can't complain much now can u?

Oh ya, then there's the neverending asignments.
Imagine, 3rd week and i'm starting to get stressed already.
Hmm.