Up Down Up Down Humblebrag Post

I'm frustrated.
Annoyed.
Angry.
Disappointed.

And, this morning I wanted to kick myself.
I missed the Delivery Guy.
I heard the bell but I brushed it off thinking it was the neighbor's.
This is called Zi Zuo Zi Shou.
T.T

*Pushes negativity away*

*Deep breaths*

Let's focus on the good stuff shall we?

Yesterday was.. spectacular.

The day started off with good news from my orthopedic visit.
No broken bones!
May require one month or so to heal completely but its definitely good news :)

But the highlight of the day was my Psychopathology class.

One of our assignments was to submit a journal entry after every class.
And and and..
I was personally requested by the professor to share mine in class to "enhance the positive learning of others".
*shy*

I felt like a kid in primary school, standing up to read your essay out loud that kind?
Haha.
That basically sums it all.
But it ended with positive response from my class la,
no one threw eggs on me.
But the one thing that really struck me was my professor's comment after the class applauded my impromptu presentation, she said:
"If there is something more to having chills reading your journal, it is to have it read aloud in class" 

Omg.
I can fly and swell and burst of happiness I tell you.
I was thinking: I can't sing but I can cause goosebumps too! Yay! Lolol.
Ok, done with part one.

Part two was the.. presentation.
Not just any normal presentation but to lead the class in a diagnosis as well.
The presentation went very very well! Amen!
Our professor gave us approving smiles,
and we could answer all the questions without stuttering too much.
We managed the discussion pretty well too!

And somehow we made more friends cos one, everyone knows our name now.
And two, alot of them came by to congratulate us on our successful presentation.

I just feel so.. BLESSED.
All glory goes to Him!

Apart from being a humble brag,
this post serves to capture all these positive emotions.
To give me a dose of positivity whenever I feel like going down the negative spiral stairway again.
To remind me that I am still so blessed, in every way.

Sigh.
Life is full of ups and downs.
While we cannot always stay up,
we must remember that every down means we're going back up, very very soon.

Hang in there!
Perseverance is key!!

*back to assignments*

Oh ya, cannot have two lengthy posts with no pics one!

Haha.

#1 Us before the presentation.

#2 Us with the huge ass "bible" of clinical psych-ies.

#3 My current bffs. They keep my ass safe. LOL

Humpty Dumpty

My parents seem fond of that song,
and every time they sing that I think of myself as a bald egg.
Or something of that sort.

So anyway,
I fell down the stairs.
Nope, I wasn't on my phone or anything,
I just had pins and needles in my left foot.
I did not miss a step or anything,
but somehow my left foot gave way and I slipped.

And damn, I think this accounts for one of the most painful moments in my 22 years of life.

For someone with a high pain threshold as me,
I was immobilized for 3-5 minutes.
Just crouching in pain, couldn't get up.
Surprisingly, no tears.
*proud* Grown up liao. LOL

And then everything seemed ok for a while,
I stood up, went on with my mission of getting my bottle filled,
and went back up.

20 minutes later: the beginning of hell.

I couldn't sit, or stand in a certain position,
or lie down, or walk, or jump, or run.
I couldn't bend down, I couldn't go to the bathroom,
I couldn't move basically.

Ok la, maybe couldn't is a strong word.
Couldn't as in couldn't do it normally, each small movement becomes a huge pain in the ass.
LITERALLY pain in the ass because the tailbone is right there.
=.=

Sigh.
And now two days has passed with no significant improvement.
Finally dragging my ass (pun intended) to the clinic tomorrow.

Sigh.
The point of this post?
*nuthin*

I just need something to get my mind off the clinic visit tmr.
Worried la.
And scared.
Not so much on the pain but the long term consequences.
What if I cannot dance anymore?
What if I cannot wear high-heels anymore?
*cry*

Sigh. It'll be ok la I guess.
*ten fingers crossed*

Annoying Much?

I cannot comprehend people who annoys others for a living.
Ok la, obviously they did not do it on purpose.
And obviously you have the right and choice to be NOT annoyed by them.

This is just a random list of people (types) I cannot stand:

1. Zi yi wei shi kind of people. In other words, dunno much but pretending very hard to be know-all.

2. Rude people. People who dunno how to spell respect and manners.

3. Buay paiseh kind of people. Take everything for granted and demand you bow to them one.

4. Why-me?! kind of people. Like oh my god! Why me? Why I kena saman? (when obviously they did something to deserve it)

5. It's-not'my-fault-it's-the-world's-fault. Enough said.

6. Kepohs. People who poke their nose into everything and worst, think they know everything. Which brings us back to Number 1.

To balance out my mean-ness,
I need to clarify that all statements above are very VERY subjective,
and (if possible) it is not right to judge lar.

Chances are, for every type stated above,
I believe you can instantly think of someone you know.
If you have them,
be thankful, cos you're not alone.

If you dun have,
too bad, you have too little friends.
Haha! No la,
be thankful even more, cos you're dumb kind enough not to notice them.

And to balance it further,
the world is still a pretty place!
Hence, ending this post with non-annoying things,
like balloons.

Except those that go "pop" without warning.

Mindful Awareness

Have you tried being mindful?
Being mindful of the every single thing you're doing,
being mindful of your surroundings, your environment,
the words you speak the message you send across.

Mindful awareness is one of the topics our Psychopathology professor recommended us to read.
Well, it was categorized under "suggested readings"
But knowing the kiasu-ness in us Asians,
of cos read la.
And boy, am I glad I did.

And somehow this resonates with the other philosophies I have come to adopt as my own throughout the years.
To live in the present,
to live life to the fullest, basically.
And it requires a great amount of meta-cognition.

Simply, are you aware of your own thoughts?
Are you thinking about what you're currently thinking about? 

And one might think that an accidental spill here, another accidental bruise there would be due to butter fingers or bad coordination.
But really, it reflects how one isn't in the present condition.
However, that doesn't mean one isn't totally NOT mindful.
He or she may be mindful about other things - such as mindfully daydreaming.

I can go on and on...

Anyway, hope you're being mindful about your thoughts and emotions today!
Set your path where you want it to be.

xoxo