of matta fair and the babes

My babes.
How cliche.
Yet, they were the ones who were there when I need them.
Not complete yet.
Me lucky. me got more. =)
but I'm nevertheless grateful how they have come into my life.

Number one: The one who knows me inside out


Number two: The one who understands my inside out


Number three: The one who never-speaks-or-contacts-much but still be there no matter what

Number four: The one who seems like she cudn't care less but is always there, faithfully

Number five: The one I just met but yet i just know we wud click


Ironically,
these were the ones who never hesitate to tel me the ugly truth,
however ugly it may seem.
Mind you, they are not the nicest of people,
yet their heart is as pure as gold.
it was the genuineness that kept us goin,
and i treasure every single one to the core.

You know wat? They're like my mirror at times.
Telling me where to go.
Assuring me there's sumwhere to lean on.


and when I'm sad, they share me tears.


Time flies.
and ppl change.
yet,
the footsteps they left behind,
makes my life a more wonderful kind.

<3 ya all.

Matta Fair day 1

Day 1.
The usual.
Feet that are no longer mine. >.<

But today was good.
Sales was good I mean.
wait for my pic-tahs homosapiens.

will be up soon.
in the meantime, two more days for u to come visit.

Hall 1 Macau Tourism Booth.
Near the stage honey. =)

See you there! Mua Mua.

perfectionista

I'm not a perfectionist.
I do not attempt the impossible.
I know my limits.
I know what I can do well.

That's the thing that kills.
Gnawing. Guilt. Disappointment. Anger.
I was supposed to be better.
Way way way much better.

I failed.
Do not give me shit about how blessed I am to have gotten that many marks.
I live up to my own expectations.
I sucked.
I f*cked up.
I screwed the stupid damn presentation.

And after all the letting out,
I'm mature enough to (try to) get over it.

Hopefully.


For now, I'll try to stop being depressed.

Rest, I need

I'm not young anymore.
I'm serious.
I can see how late nights are really killing me.
Bad skin, fluctuating weight, super huge eye bags.
Low blood pressure, muscle cramps, and blurred vision.
Not to mention super bithcy periods and wonderful migraines.
Ugh!

I need a life.
Okay, maybe not to that extent.
But i really need to sleeeeeep.

I was so sleepy while ushering at Unifest that i literally slept
With all the music booming in my ears!
Tat's how badly I need to sleep.

Fundraising down.
Psych Camp down.
Unifest down.
Philo Acting presentation down.
Ethics term paper down.

Next week:
Hailer March.
Poster Presentation.
Ethics Interview assignment.
Journal critique.
Debate presentation.
Last but not least, MATTA Fair.

Hmm.
You know wat?
I'll survive. =)

Love you peeps.
Love me pls? <3

Exoh.

Chian

Gan Hui Chian, this post is for you.
There's counselling due tomorrow but I cannot contain my emotions right now.



You make me wanna cry, you stupid girl.
Stress is taking its toll on me.
With camp and assignments due this week.
My phone had to join in the fun by deleting all my messages and CONTACTS.
For no apparent reason.
Do not ask me to check my SIM card pls, cos I already did tat.

So indulged in self-pity I was,
until Gan Hui Chian had to tag me in her FB status asking everyone to cheer me up and send me their contacts.

Aargh.

That did it.
I cried.
It was such a simple gesture but it warmed every cell in my body.

See why I hate you now Gan Hui Chian?

Rawr in the New year

Chinese New Year was a blast. =)
I had a great time.

Happy Tiger Year everyone!


It wasn't so much on the new clothes or ang paus,
but the time we spent together,
whether with family or with friends.
CNY somehow gives us the perfect reason just to meet up and renew our ties. =)

I love you peeps. =)

It was also this time of joyous feelings that i was constantly reminded of the impermanence of life.
How vulnerable, how weak, how uncertain.

The dragon boat tragedy in Penang left my heart with a hole,
it wasn't just some news in the papers.
This time, it was much closer than you think.
It struck nearer to home,
and the fact that my cousin was a good friend to the victims only made it worse.

And then it was the road accident one of my high school junior was involved in.
Still in coma, and showing no signs of recovery yet.
He is the same age as me,
and as I'm blogging,
He's struggling to survive.
Life really isn't fair is it?

And then you ask:
What can we do?
The answer? Nothing.

We can never stop death from invading,
but we can make life a more worthful one.

You have heard this a hundred and one times,
but I'm going to say it again.

Live like it's your last day.
Live like you're dying.

Tats wat Kris allen says too okayy? =)

Live with no regrets.

And while you're at that,
do tell your loved ones how much you love them, okay?

Give them a kiss.


Or just squeeze them hard. =)




p/s: I love you guys.
Each one of you reading this. =)

Exoh.
Back to assignments.

Gong Xi Valentines

Ohmigosh.
Time flies, and it's New Year eve dy.
=(

Noooo.
I have not lost enough weight yet.

So many things to update, so little time.
Will be back to Penang with the Hang Tens by Monday, back on Friday.
Gimme some time kayy?
I'll tell u all about Do You Love Me? =))

In the meantime,
Happy CNY and Happy Valentines too.

Enjoy yr holidays, peeps.

Love,
Carmen


p/s: see u in the Tiger year. =)