还是爱哭鬼

东西收一收，
泪水又想流。

有些兴奋，
有些忧伤，
有些忐忑不安。

忽然在想，
戏里患了绝症而知道自己时日不多的角色应该就是我现在这个样子吧。
然后每每想到这里，
就暗骂自己。
至少我只是暂时离开。

只是岁月不留人，
一年不长不短，
变化却可以很猖狂。

是父母脸上的皱纹也好，
是弟妹惊人的成熟度也罢，
我，
怎么还是忐忑？

一直在想，
还能为我爱的人些什么，
还能为这一年没有我的时日，
补偿些什么。

天啊，
是否每个要离开家的人都会如此情绪化？
大概只是因为我爱哭吧！
T.T

战争

大脑和身心的相斗，
总觉得前者总是遥遥领先。

再疲惫的身体，
再倦懊的心灵，
都得听大脑的呼唤。

失眠，
大概就是两者输给该死的大脑。

深深明白再繁闹的思绪都无补于事，
睡眠却从不跟随意愿。

这不是自虐是什么？

Clairie Berry Strawberry

I never understood why my mum liked to boast about my academic results in school back then.
Or tell her friends how I'm faring well in my arts or piano lessons.
Or talk about how helpful I was around the house (Haha!)
But I'm glad to be her joy and pride. *tearyeyed*

Moving on.

But then I guess the pride of a mum is indescribable and highly difficult to understand,
if you have not experienced it.
I found it weird why mummies would opt to show everyone their "cute" child,
or talk (to anyone who listens) about how "clever" their child is in reciting their ABCs.

Until I met Claire.

And how I cannot stop bragging about her cuteness and wittiness.

For starters (and a disclaimer),
she's not my daughter.
No surprise there.

And secondly,
she was actually part of the reason why I had to do extra work during my internship!
She was an added responsibility,
as she was the only child at that time to be attending play school classes.
I was given the responsibility to care for her, one to one,
and when I say care I mean,
eat, class, nap, pee and poo.

Yuck. 

No laaa..
I enjoyed every. single. moment . spent with her.
I daresay its the highlight of my internship!

Ok, I'm not gonna lie and say the poo part was fun,
but damn!
I remember the first time she poo-ed in the toilet instead of her diaper!
*tearyeyed again*

I know you wouldn't want to listen about me brag about how smart she is,
how she can read like a 6 year old,
how witty she can be,
how adorable she is when she laughs,
and how she responds to "laugh" rather than "smile" during picture taking.

Sure, you wouldn't want to know that she has perfect memory,
and can hold a conversation with an adult at any given time,
or that she can write 1-10 at only the age of 3, recite all her ABCs, write her name and recite the San Zi Jing as well.

I mean,
you're not interested right?

So I'll just keep it to myself la.

Haha.

This post is becoming a bit too lengthy!

All I actually wanted to say was, I had a date with Clairie Berry yes-yesterday! 
And I had so so so much fun! <3

# 1 She brought her fav Poppin Cookin over to play

# 2 Having fun with Teacher Carmen's plushies. Apparently she enjoys being a Tiger.. Haha

# 3 I made dinner! We share the same favorite food - Fish Biscuits!

# 4 And I dunno what I did to deserve this. Thanks again Lovell! T.T

Oh, and as much as you guys don't give a damn about this cute, adorable, smart, pretty little girl,
this post shall be a reminder of how you changed my life Clairie Berry Strawberry!

You have taught me so much (other than the vocabs),
and God bless that you will grow up to be a successful and xing-fu person!

Teacher Carmen loves you very much and will be looking forward to see you soon!

xoxo



P/s: A very BIG thank you to Mummy Lovell for making all this happen. Without you none of this would be possible! :)

Hasty July

I'm sorry.
I haven't been updating, again.

Here's a picture to make you (actually me) feel better.

Now that you've seen my big-ass face and oh-so-captivating wink, you can now proceed below.
:p

In a nutshell,
I've been too busy, and way too free.
Busy with the usuals,
trying to lose more weight, to spend more time with the loved ones, to finish the brother's syllabus,
to pack, to rush my visa procedures, to prepare for a life abroad.

And free because,
you know these little little slots of time that you know you should be doing something but you can't bring yourself to do so,
and then you end up being unproductive,
and upset because you wasted so much time?
Yea, on top of the jobless status now, these evil times gives you a fake sense of being very "free".

Dun be a smart-ass, of cos I know its called procrastination.

But I think the biggest change and biggest denominator of my life these days,
is the emotional change I'm going through.
I'm getting (subconsciously) very close to my mumsie,
manja-ing and more manja-ing and whatnots,
and somehow,
I suddenly realize I'm not gonna see her for at least a year (**put in emoji with blue cheeks and O shaped mouth with hands at the side of face)

I always thought my sister would be the biggest challenge,
(but I think its okay now since she aways ditch me these days for her happening and glamorous life, no la, joking haha! cos she reads my blog like duh )
But I guess mumsie, despite her frequent (and annoying) mood swings,
still scores a soft spot.

And now I don't think getting closer to anyone is a good thing. T.T
Cannot tahan myself sometimes,
worry about climate, studies, housing first can arr?
Instead of worrying about the possible (actually I know its for sure) homesickness..
Oh wells,
me will be me.

OK enough of talking.
A recap of my July so far.
Nothing much, really.

Started my July with a dose of midnight k session.
I love impromptu and spontaneous outing.
And I love you girls too!

Spent quality time with the idiot.
Years (more than 1 so can put "s") have passed since we see each other every single day.
I miss those times, really.
And I dun think I will ever get another study partner like you!

Checked in to DoubleTree by Hilton hotel for a simple celebration.
Thank you for everything!
I am so grateful to have you in my life.

P/s: How do you like my short hair? 

Random outing with the family.
Its these kind of times that somehow affects me a lot :')

Some more bonding session.
Sometimes at the darkest times of life you find true friendship.
Though nothing is permanent, let us not forget the tears and joy that bonded us as true companions for that one night.

This is trivial. But I tried belly candle / tummy candle (or whatever you call it) for the first time!
So random right? LOL

Celebrated aunt's bday.
Was quite emotional when we gave her a surprise cos she said she feels like crying thinking about us not being here next year.
I went from =.= to T.T
Me love you too!
She doesn't know what a blog is, haha,
but thank you very much for being the glue and life of the family! :)

Erm, I guess my July is more happening than I thought.
Oh wells, there's always room for part two!
So.. Stay tuned!

P/s: I miss Clairie Bearie so much I think I'm gonna go visit her tomorrow. Randome!

Nighties :)

Wake me up when September ends...

..Or maybe not.
Don't think I would wanna be asleep that long. *ficklemindedcantdecide*

What will July bring?
More cheers and tears.
More hellos and goodbyes.
More errands to run.
More emotions to cope with.

Time is limited.
And with all the items on my to-do-list,
I'm far from having a "break".

I would love to sleep my time through.
Then again, that wouldn't be "living life to the fullest" would it?

Dear God, grant me the strength.
Not only physically but emotionally.
Getting very sentimental (too sentimental!) about everything and everyone.
Which isn't very productive I realized.

Dear July you have to be a good month okay?
Much loves.


P/S: Quote of the week
Expect the best, plan for the worst, be prepared for surprises.
I think its the surprises' part that sucks.