It Takes More Than Breakfast

A whole morning spent here.
as well as a hearty delicious breakfast.

yet something is not right.
the smiles on our face weren't entirely genuine, yet, i hope.

it seems like a really really nice vacation,

where we get to check in to a luxurious resort.

Beautiful, yet not mine.

as if we wud jus wake up n say:

hey, let's go home now!

it takes more time than expected.

twas teary at last.

the whole moving thing took its toll on me n sis last nite.

we tried to grab hold of everything,

to make a firmer grip on places n things that are only memories now.

dun get me wrong.

i'm still happy n excited with this new house.

i guess i jus need a long time to really settle in.

on the bright side,

took some pictures of breakfast.

prepared by none other than Grand Chef Carmen,

with the help of her lovely siblings.

having the cousins over tonight,

shud be fun.

Happy New Year everyone~

My Goodbyes

While everyone's busy saying goodbye to 2008,
I will be busy saying goodbyes to 2008 AND my old house.
Bye bye now!
I'm not as teary as i imagined i would be.
its just tat tingling feeling of a lil sadness in my heart,
jus a lil.
i wud miss everything here.
Everything.
yea,
i'm oni moving to somewhere near,
practically 5 mins away,
the neighbourhood will still be almost the same,
but yet,
its really really different.

forgive me for being lil mis old-lady,
but it is really my last nite sitting here blogging.
i won't miss here tat much as i can still come here if i want to,
but i reli hope i can get used to the new environment.
not physically, just mentally,
if u know wat i min. ~

i'm moving in at 9 sharp 2morrow.
suppose 2 be the auspicious time according to Chinese Feng Shui.

Welcoming the new year..
In the new house~
Great beginning?
You bet! XD

Its Official

Its official.
I'm moving.
Like for really really real.
neer have i thrown so many stuff in my life.
got pics of stuff that i threw tho,
jus for memory purposes.

super duper tired.
wil update soon?
nitez~

Christmas 2008

one of my fav times of the year.
got to celebrate it with a bunch of frens this year.
well spent, eventful n kinda tired.
*wink*
but twas nice. really. i enjoyed alot.
aunty lynn called this morning from sabah to wish me Merry Christmas.
wasn't really awake but i heard clearly wat she said.
"do not forget the real meaning of Christmas, darling"
yea..
tat kinda woke me up..

aunty cici called from Japan too..
but too bad i did not manage to answer her calls.
sorry .. but merry chrismas to u too..
i miss u ..

n to my dear one,
thank u so much.
not for wat u have given me but wat u have done for me.
i appreciate yr effort soooo much.
i love it very much,
n i hope u like mine too.

to my dear puk,
i hope u like the lil cow,
n i do hope u find happines tat shud be yours.
to my dear yaya,
u weren't on my shopping list but i cudn't help buying tat duck for u.
thank u 4 being ter,
as well as helping *arhem* with the pressie.
love u so much.
to my dear jojo,
glad tat u found the one tat i think is very much suitable for u.
tho yr prssie is still with me,
i hope it brings u my blessing n wishes tat u wud be happy always.

Happy (belated) Birthday Jesus!^^

Yes or No

YES or NO are two buttons in life that make living easier. yes, they may be the two extremes, n rite, u may have the worst headache producing the right word for a choice or dilemma, but the roads leading to yr destined answer are paved n thus though u may fall, u r still on solid ground.

imagine a world without these two diverging words. when everything stays in a way of blurry decision n when it is no longer important to know. u swim throught the grey area seeking for a definite answer, and yet u come to a conclusion that neither will satisfy yr unsolved mysteries. U know it is a NO, yet it won't go. U cannot make a fuss abt it since it wasn't a YES, n so u stayed n stick through the pain.

it no longer matters. because the poison has comfotably nested itself in within. pop a pill of faith n love, n perhaps drink a cup of time, for there is no other remedy tat wud heal this permanent wound. a strike of amnesia wud be much appreciated, but every fall makes me stronger, n i will be back n the right track. Just gimme some time. Tat's all i'm asking for.

Christmas Mood

season of gatherings.
to me, u have to feel belonged to be able to want to go for it.
get it?
i know we shud treasure times like these,
especially when we have really passionate ppl in our class who wud organize such things,
but if u dun feel like it,
why force yrself?
a phrase from a book i read in my early teens,
"Being a Happy Teenager"
has nailed a verse into my mind:
Continue being sad if that makes u happy.
yea,
so why the guilty feeling?
geez.

okay.
i kinda ,juz teeny bit of me kinda,
wanna go.
guess it wud be fun.
but from wat i heard from babe yaya 2day,
my predictions were utterly accurate.
*sigh*
guess most of us are just not trying hard enough.

but seriously,
why now?
u see gatherings everywhere.
why the hurry ppl?
i'm in a grumpy state i guess.
hahaz.

anywayz,
back to the festive mood.
i'm officially done with my Christmas shopping!
Yay!!
something to be happy about.
(let's just temporarily forget abt the hole in my pocket..or wallet..or piggy bank..or bank..)
erhem!
went to get the last gift on my list,
the one for my precious darling.
well,
i bought wat i intended to,
but yet i completed my trip with two more presents.
kinda unexpected actually.
one for the best fren from high school n another for the best fren in uni.
guess i'm really done now.

guys,
hope u like wat i gave u,
altho u r not suppose to open it yet. XD
if u dun like it,
dun bother telling me.
just tel me u like it just as much,
deal?
love ya~

熟悉

今天要说的熟悉，有两种。
熟悉了现在这种怀念的感觉，
也怀念着那种熟悉的感觉。
有些复杂吗？
听起来有些像回文。
哈哈，叶老师，
我的修辞可还没还给你，
该庆幸吧？

整理照片用了我整天的百分之四十的时间。
对着电脑，原来还真的会累。
真的不明白那些可以一整天，
对着电脑玩游戏的人。
尤其是那些种花钓鱼似的！
哈哈。。摆明在说你啦！

时间总是出卖回忆，
看回照片中的我们，
心情复杂得无法形容。
怀念是必然，
但并不是单纯想要回到过去。
也许心智慢慢成熟，
明白过去也都已经成定局。
选择往前走，
人生顿时变得更有色彩。

你看，
有feel的时候，写出来的东西总有些不同吧？
嘿嘿。。
晚安咯。

Rant Along

its one of the days.
rain drops drizzling.
moody, sad , heartbroken.
just bathing myself in self-pity.
har har.
drama queen has her quiet time u know.

it is one of those days where i sit down n think. why m i such a failure at times?
yea. why do she has this when i dun?
why does he does tat when i can't?
where r my frens? or rather, who r my frens?
geez.
the wilderness of the straying mind.
i'm sad. n confused. n hurt in a way.
i know some things may not be the way it seems,
but yet its hard to just shake away the unhappy feeling.

yea.
mayb i m just being selfish. not to mention immature as well.
but seriously,
i m oni human.

wishing all da best for u my fren.
we were once tat close, but yet now so far.
yr huge strides has left me to pant behind.
n try as i might, my quickened pace has yet to catch up wit u .
i see our future roads in divergence, n sometimes i do feel like weeping.
memories bring me closer to yr presence,
but the present is falling apart.

i miss u.
so much.

Life Wasn't the Same Anymore

It was scheduled to start at 9 am.
u may think we are crazy,
but once u have experienced it,
life wud never be the same again.
i'm talking abt Jusco member's day.
the only word to describe it wud be: C-R-A-Z-Y!

yea. n i'm one of the "crazy" crowd.
we were clever (n crazy) enuf to reach there by 0730.
we tot we were the oni kiasu ones, but lo n behold!
the parking spaces were already half full.
a crowd was forming at the main entrance,
n the number of cars coming in were alarming.
hey ppl, we are talking abt 730 in the morning!

but we were far too lazy to be standing at the main entrance,
so off we go according to our plan:
to have breakfast somewhere nearby.
3 pairs of sisters.
me n my sis.
my mum n my aunt.
as well as both my cousins.
age: ranging from the forties to ten n below.
no surprise here.
mamak stalls nearby were overcrowded as well.
aahhh..
the power of member's day..

by the time we made our way back. it has alredy started.
doors opened by 830.
well, ter goes our another plan to get one of the earlybird prizes.
hahaz.
we splitted ourselves into 3groups,
n so the journey begins........................

twas crazy. but really worth it.
n trust me.
life really wasn't the same anymore.
^^

December Babies

happy birthday my dearests.

thanks for being the most annoying n pestering siblings.
u guys excel in being the most lovable hateful person.

i love u two soo much!
happy officially 13 n 16.

busy day ahead 2morrow.
dun worry. i'll make 2moro's bbq party a super unforgetable one!

Love u ~

Twisted Neck

I could almost roll myself into a ball n die of stupidity.
i wud have kicked myself if i cud manage.
*sigh*
woke up with a twisted neck. was sooooo stupid. how cud anyone sleep n twiste their neck all at the same time. maybe sumone hit me. yea. tats a nicer tot. at least i dun feel tat stupid. haha.

immobilized in many ways. never knew the neck was tat important. i min, i knew it was important, but not in the way tat .. Arrgh! forget it! i'm bragging about a stupid twisted neck.
mayb i will have 2 skip class tomorrow night. n no more headstands for at least a week. even lifting my right hand hurts. small lil yelps of self pity cud be heard throughout the day. hahaz. i pity my sister actually.

the neck has it.
but other than tat, nuthin much has changed. missing someone? check. still fat? check. Untidy room? check. busy cleaning? check. n of cos: twisted neck? check.