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看着照片
好像不能不认老耶
认识了10年的我们 （有些还是超过的）
今年都踏入适婚年龄了，是不？
呵呵
你们啦，我还没
啦啦啦~

想起来，
我们经历的，
还真的蛮多的..

我们之间的drama就别说了，
家丑不可外扬嘛..
（其实是因为太多，太复杂所以无法一一列出来..)

我和比的失恋期，
有雯陪我们度过。
（原来那一段日子我们没照相）

陈丽雅的痛苦暧昧期，
我忘了除了我还有谁见证你哭泣呀？>.<
这个是你和雯吵架的时候拍的..
还是很喜欢 :)

还有我的大大失恋期，
疯狂，堕落，血腥的日子。
但无可否认也是这段日子使我们关系更亲密！

再来就是林芳琪的短暂失恋期了。
有点模糊，
可是很难忘记我们三个在厕所抱着痛哭的情景。
哈哈
然后我们三个很得空时常约出去，
无聊就是逛街说别人坏话，
我们那时都失业吧？

还有就是很last minute决定出去的，
只有我们俩，记得吗？

所以啊，
雯的失恋，
一样有我们为你撑腰！

有点像在看偶像剧是不？
就是那种很多年的朋友，
然后经历的点点滴滴用flashback方式播放。
只是我们的flashback和他们的不太一样，
太多丑照了....

我觉得阿，
除了生日有得聚一聚之外，
我们就是其中一人有事的时候最齐人了！=.="

嗯..
初老症状：我忘了这一个blogpost的主要目的是什么了..
哎呀，
就是很爱你们就对了啦!

p/s: 还有阿比的招牌祝福语“友谊永固”咯。呵呵呵..

Us as Mortals

We all find life overwhelming, at one point or another.

Sometimes you read about death and mortality and all kinds of misfortune,

and then you're grateful for every single breath you take.

Then you remember the pain, the hardship, the difficult, lonely times,

and you wish you're dead again.

Or never born.

What has all this pain got to do in my life, you think?

I know it makes me a tougher person,

but then doesn't it robs me of all my innocence as well?

How am I suppose to laugh and talk and smile freely again,

when I am now aware of how negative, judgmental and ugly the world can be? 

Why can't I be like him?

Rich, wealthy, smart, carefree.

Or like her?

Pretty, skinny, popular, happy. 

Do we not all wish we were someone else, at some point in life?

And do we not ALL know how silly and unhealthy these thought can be.

How positive thinking should drive our course of life,

how happy thoughts can bring us further, how we should live life to the fullest and not look back.

How we should NOT thinking about "these things" and focus instead on bringing out the positivism of life. 

Hah!

The thing we never do realize, 

or perhaps selectively ignore is, the fact that

pain, fear, disappointment, and all this heart-wrenching moments are all part and parcel of life. 

When we laugh, we make room for our hearts to weep.

When there is fear, there is also room for empowerment and growth.

And when we fall, there is when we get up and rise higher. 

你，好胜什么？

在程又青身上看到了自己。

一样那么好胜，那么骄傲。

对自己要求严格，清楚自己的强项。

喜欢有进取心的男人，要求自己更上一层楼。

遇到挫折一样跌得很深，

以往的伤痕教我不再轻易信任。

给他人的感觉总是冷傲，高不可攀，

内心却一如往常担心别人怎么想。

其实，

好胜可以为我带来什么？

争取什么？

活着，争夺每一分每一秒，

胜利，又代表什么？

至少对我而言，

好胜绝对不是贬义词。

若胜利不能带来他人追求的快乐，

至少，它是我的推动力。

已经尽力而为以后，

得到的结果已不再是游戏的重点。

这样的游戏规则，

你通晓了吗？

It's your birthday, they said

Perhaps age plays a part,

where birthdays are no longer fantasies of surprises and massive hoo-hahs. 

As most of you now know,

I spent it with the loved ones, in Bangkok, away from all familiarities. 

It was simple, and quiet, and.. very much subdued.

Since when Birthday has become this occasion to retrospect into the past year, and look back to all that I have done? Or most importantly, have not done?

Turning 21. Photoshoot. 

Have you not pondered on the purpose of life, like the TRUE reason you're here? 

I don't know. This day has brought with it a type of invasive mellowness, and somehow I lament and ponder about the things, people, and relationships that one cannot control. 

Time, it can miraculously heal yet mercilessly kill. 

I know I'm blessed. I am grateful for all that I have. 

Thank you God for all that you have put me through, for all that you have given me. 

For all the wonderful people you placed in my life.

For loving me despite who I am inside. 

Thank you. 

And then I have so many to thank you. My family, my wonderful wonderful sister, the irreplaceable old one. Special thanks to Idiot Joanna Mah, for sending a birthday card about the weather in UK. I miss you so much! So so so much. For the Happenings and Shena, for calling me personally, though I couldn't answer, and sending me text messages despite me being overseas. For all the wishes on FB, though most of you would say its nuthin much really, but the fact that you took the trouble to drop a simple Happy Birthday means a lot to me! For people I did not expect to wish me, like Ms Lee, who wished me personally! And so much more. I'm blessed :) 

My birthday weekend was wrapped up with a family dinner, nothing exceptional but definitely to be treasured. 

Last but not least, Happy Birthday Carmen Kho! Cheers to a more challenging journey ahead. May you always live in the present, put your best into everything you do, and most importantly, live with no regrets! 

How old are you?

April. Shoot me.

Which means I have less than a month left of 21-ness. T.T

Negativity seems to come with age.
And yes, I am on a constant fight to defy negativity (and gravity too for certain parts of my body).

*cry somemore*

Anyway, let ALL the positivity flow before 22 hits me hard!

Teaser post on my Japan trip =)

#1 - Its all about the cute-ness.



#2 - From mouth-watering yummies..



#3 - To irresistible drinks ! (It's Godiva mind you..)



#4 - Mount Fuji..



#5 - And more breath-taking sceneries



#6 - From the grocery store ..



#7 - to Japanese Karaoke!



#8 - Of course, What's Japan without shopping?..



#9 - And of course, the amazing people! Thank you for the great company! =)



Last but not least, Thank you Lord for the wonderful experience despite all the little bumps leading towards this getaway.

#10 - This makes you wanna go to Japan too, no? :p

Lunch

Blogging during lunch means a few things.

Im on a diet. Nah.
Maybe I gobble my food. Hence the free time.
Or maybe I just feel like updating my blog. Like duh.

But it definitely means ONE thing. I am alone. Not lonely, mind you. Just alone. #foreveralone

I mean, if you see me now, I am as blur as u can imagine. Just so you dun need to imagine so hard, please find the attached to your perusal.

You're welcome.

Thoughts

I believe we should never take things for granted
However accessible and available it may be

I believe we should never assume and make our own conclusions
Less to make our own judgments

I believe as well that we should treat all others with respect
Despite the circumstances

People watching.
In a club.
More than just booze and music.

:)