Oh My Friday

Classes on fridays are like working on Sundays.
It's sad. Yet there's nuthin we can do abt it when we have already enjoyed those oh-so-lovely holidays that fell on mondays.
Its like paying with a credit card i guess?
The thrill and excitement is over, and now its pay back time! *evil laugh in the backgorund*
Blogging in the library is a bit desperate actually,
but i am too lazy too start on PRM, or cognitive, or even Public Speaking.

Off to my 3 hour class now.
At least there's something to look forward 2 tonight. ^^
btw, serious shopping needed. tats somehow good too. XD

Love ya!

I need.

Where are you when i need you?
Yr call was a blessing, yet i was too tired to listen to your words of complain.
For me, love comes from the heart.
To be cared for is something i do not need to mention.
Yet, again and again you showed no interest in my personal feelings.
I climbed out of bed groggily just to answer yr cal,
u telling me nuthin important yet i tot it was sweet.
We are different, for you willingly let me cry myself to sleep.
You think i'm emotional, i think we're totally different.
You think i'm clingy and childish,
I think we'll come to an end if we continue like this.

Who shall i turn to when you shut me out the door?

Hate is such a powerful word. I can't hate you, yet. But i hate it when I'm alone like this.
I really do.

A Change and A Twist

Peeps, do me a favor and tel me wat you see? A change i min. A real big one in my opinion. So far, none of my so called "closed ones" have been able to "detect" it. It was below threshold for them perhaps? Hahaz. Anyway, its not below the average threshold though, cos Uncle Lam cud see it without even guessing or hesitating. He's superb! ^^

Tats the happier side of my day. BLK case had some updates. Uncle Bus din wanna pay. I dun blame him cos it is a huge amount. But you can't talk to me like tat. If u think it's unfair for you, it's double unfair for me. I was the one who kena hit, I was the one who had to endure the inconvinience of not having a car, I was the one wo had to send my car to the workshop, and now you want me to pay? U said how is a driver like you going 2 pay? Then how am I a student going to pay?

Ethically, I am at no fault bcos what you wrecked supposedly costs that much. *sigh* I did not even think about earning money from this incident, for goodness sake. Then you wanna bring up the issue of me being educated while u're not. It annoys me to think that you perceive me as a cheater, bcos i did absolutely nothing to deserve that! I was good enuf to understand yr situation, and guess wat? If you had spoken in a more civilised way, I am more than willing to pay half of the total amount.

But no, you had to shout at me for approximately 10 mins, shut me off completely, and slam my phone twice. Why can't we talk nicely? Damn. You made me annoyed, frustrated and miserable. You accused me of cheating yr money, and tat was the last straw. You went on threathening to bring this to the police.

Pathetic isn't it? You hit, and now you make a fuss? Now things have to turn really ugly.

Bus Langgar Kereta

Hey! Did u guys hear about the car that was parked in UCSI? It was knocked in the side by the UCSI shuttle bus. Right inside UCSI's own parking. Yea, kinda hilarious isn't it? Not too mention unlucky. Har har. Many tot it was kinda impossible, not that the car was parked at some undesignated area. Many students practically "marveled" at the possibility of this happening. And yea, it was such a VIP parking spot. Right in front of first floor entrance. Bumper came off, lights were shattered. Lotsa little scratches. Pretty ugly.

Oh yea. Did I mention I own the car?

*sigh* kinda distressed to blog more. will update more on the BLK (Bus Langgar Kereta) details?

Wish me luck for presentation 2mr. Till then.

Words to a Loved One

Looking back, I see how the wounds and pain have made me stronger. How hurtful words and stabbing acts have helped me grow. How the harshfulness of reality had me more resilient. I am grateful for what I have became, I am thankful for now I know what I am capable of handling. I've been through the darkest of days, I have seeked for help but none was offered. Today, I am strong in the arms of my heavenly Father. I am different, I am no longer easily defeated. I may be weak, but i do not give up.

I have been there, and I know how you feel. Be strong my dear, and even the storm will not bring you down. Carry yourself with more wisdom and caution in the future, love God and love yourself. You have my ever care and support, my understanding and love.

Your situation brings back memories of the painful past, yet, do you not see that I am still good?

Damn!

You know wat?
I'm seriously fed up.
Damn u. Really.
I'm getting so pissed off with yr time management and yr stuck-up-i'm-always-right ways.
Fine! Really.
I'm soooooo angry with myself for bringing myself into this sh*t.

Wat is this if it isn't selfish?
F*ck!

After the Big V

Big V day's over.
Back to painfully frustrating reality.
cognitive to be particular.
arrggh!
i have not started on my assignment, which is due 2mr.
talk abt last minute.
i'm not procrastinating, really.
just .. geez.. its cognitive!
u know?!

anyway,
have i updated guys on my CNY trip to penang?
well, twas no different, other from the fact that i had a "live-experience" with thaipusam.
eewww..
sorry, i was VERY disturbed.
they have my utmost respect,
and their faith is undeniable,
but the piercin is still so gross!
i had an unintentional view on how a big needle pierced thru a devotee's cheeks.
and trust me u dun wanna know the details.
too grossed-out to take pics, but maybe i'll upload some from my sis's camera in my facebook album.
look out there then if u wanna know more.
again, i dun despise the devotees.
just to be clear.
i really really salute them, i just can't stand the piercing, tats all.

ok now.
back to coggie.

Life after Literature Review

Killed by Lit Rev.
but tat was on tuesday.
now wat?

first n foremost,
forgive me for my oversized pictures in my last post.
yes, i know it is humongous.
yes, i know it is not proportioned.
too bad cos its my first time using photobucket.
forgive me k?
btw, wats wrong with having a real good look at me? *vain smile*

my thoughts are disturbed by your post.
man, you are still very full of yourself.
i've been in yr position.
something i can relate to, but not something i wud emphatize with.
u know wat?
i hate to say this but u really deserve it.
but who doesn't make mistakes, and perhaps this is the time you learn.
i'm not being mean, but everyone has a fall sooner or after.
its the recovery that counts.
and yea, hypocrites are everywhere.
for all i know, i may be one too in someone's opinion.
but when yr frens all tel u tat,
maybe, just maybe,
u shud really sit down and face yrself for one honest time?

ah well, back to cognitive now.
its due on monday and guess wat?
i haven't started a single thing.

arrgghh!

When Fireworks Light the Sky

for many of u out there,
the rush of excitement for CNY may be over.
Yet, it is only starting to sink in for me.
teehee~
anyway, here's how i spent my first day of CNY.
a routine we go through every year. ^^


Good morning! Twas a sunny sunny first day. and after a sumptuos breakfast prepared by dear mumsie, we were ready to start our "annual routine tour" to kajang.


First stop. and getting real hot already.
brother behind with a i'm-not-so-happy face, got ang pau's anyway..


Ms carmen became really really bored after a while...

after two more houses, mum decided to pay a visit to her aunt who resides in Klang.
not in the routine tour usually, but we were equally excited.



resorted to camwhoring after a while. house was huge....


yea..we were kinda trying to play a game of hide and seek. har har.


and then our live toy came in to the picture. had fun with this cute little baby who apparently has relative ties with me. cudn't figure out his title tho. so we called him little red monk. ^^


best jump shot i had. ugly face but the whole thing turned out ok.

and most of u know how my first day ended.
u can say tat it is a case of serious misfortune,
but i wud prefer to call it a blessing in disguise.

starting my second phase tomorrow.
YooHoo!
Penang, here I come!! ^^


ps: I have not started writing my Lit Review yet. So dead. So very dead.